im super pissed off now. i got no mood to do anything!!!!

i wanted to do my assignment, but seems like i should just ignore it, because it will make me more pissed off only!!!

because i dont know how to do, AT ALL. damn. can i sleep early today and attend tmr's long winded EOF lesson? come back home finish my housework and do my clay? tsk....

i couldn't do my clay at sch at all. because my palms are sweating. the moment i touch the clay, it becomes too sticky to handle. im so way behind the animators, most of them are finishing soon, i only have my frame, without the clay. :( so i want to do at home and bring to sch instead.

sighh... what a weekend for me, i spoil my own mood since yesterday. and im still all cranky now. but im hungry. after blogging, i will whip up something to eat, shower and sleep. i don't want to be bothered about so much anymore.

i have still not decided whether i want to work part time or not. there's a higher chance of going, but there are some things that is stopping me too. so how?

im waiting for my lesson to start. i have been slacking since 11.20+. my EOF faci just standard. no 1st break. our break usually start from 11-2. i alrdy done my work moments ago. and i just created a tumblr acc. for gods sake, i don't even know why did i create it, i dunoe how to use it at all! grrrr.....

anyway, this is what i have been doing in class!

this is week 4's lesson, im damn slow in updating. but whatever. its the Digital Media Technologies and Computer Animation lesson. very hands on lesson. (Y)

and never forget to have some fun while others enjoying their lesson. :)

and a field trip to town for Expression of Form module. damn slack day. we are supposed to take photos of 10 compositions and explain them in the four principles of design. we finished super early, we sat at scape and slack for 1hr plus and then to kinokuniya to browse at their books for anth 1hr plus. seriously, imagine how much time we wasted that day. we stayed all the way to mark our attendance. but guess what, my faci did not mark our attendance!!

and all of us are like, ahhhhh!!! !@#$%^&(*&^%$# pffft.

and not to miss is shopping last thurs at vivo with zhenlin. and i did not get anth i like that day! what a day, i only buy 2 singlets, which cost me less than $10 in all. that's how much i spent. the least i have ever spent i swear.

i wanted to get something. and there are so many things to buy, but i dunoe why, i just don't feel like bringing them home. and i sure did save some money up. that's something good. (Y)(Y)

a tap on my own shoulders~

things that i have done the past two weeks:

i baked egg tarts

i made breakfast for Jetro

i cried

i smiled

i feel loved

i feel angry

i did my assignment

1 UT down

mood was high and low recently. and i cannot think properly, im just so disturbed by my own thoughts. and whatever i am thinking has got no conclusion. the only conclusion is just anger and/or tears. im gg mad in no time. _|_

anyway, i have not decided if i should work part time or not. i tot i wanted to go after my exams, den i remember i got so many other things to do. but i don't expect myself to sit at home during the holidays, but again i got attachments at the end of this semester, my PD, my animation, my photography and every every small little things. ahhhhhh!! but i just want more money!!

and something to remind myself:

don't depend on my mood to decide things, because all the things decided will just be so _|_

不要感情用事！

oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!! sian.... tsk!

i still got housework not done yet, nvr touch a single of them yet!! TSK!

i shall finish ironing all the clothes tonight, and start on my programming assignment tmr, UT is on tues too!

ahh, tues is gg to be a long and bad day for me. just hope i can settle my moods once and for all. sigh..........

AHHHH!#$%^&*&^%$#@! feel like screaming lor, but whatever it is, i just hope time just pass by quickly!!! hope i can be kept busy with sch work! i feel like gg to work part time too, so how??

hmmm......

today was out for the whole day, wen to plaza sing to get the clay from daiso, for the claymation, end up the quality just CMI!! tsk. and we walked to taka to get from art friends instead. hope everything will be smooth lor.

anyway, thanks friends for being with me today, felt so much better with all of you around. but not to deny, when im alone again, i think of all the things again.. :(

*should i go eat prata with my brothers?

im feeling totally opposite with how am i feeling in my last post.

i seemed so lost today, mood really low, and overflowing tears.

i promised not to cry, at least i did it, not infront of him. i guess this has just come to sudden for me, i need time to accept it and really cool down.

i dunoe what am i doing today, i washed the clothes wanting to hang them out, but i realised i have not collected yesterdays one. i'm seriously blur and look like a zombie to the extend that you will want to scream your ass off me, scold me and i will still continue looking blankly at you.

you never know how i feel. seriously, i guess this is just to painful for me to accept.

but kailing is gg to buck up real soon ok! friends, thanks for concerning about me so much, i will be the old me and study and work really hard, and play hard too ok! wait for me.

everything i do, everywhere i go, lingers part and parcel of you. i miss you...