my day sucks. i dont care, i wanna grow up quickly and leave this bloody place, full of crap and shits. i wanna go back to my own hse. why is my parents divorced and attached to anth agn?
i jus hate that MAN! u deprived me of so many things, u made my mum suffer, u let huatts attitude change. i jus hate u through and through. if killing is not against the law, i would use a knife to pierce u. in and out in and out.
u're not worthy of my mum. u're not even her shit. don try to bully her or even any 1 else in my family, i'll make u suffer. when u grow old, u're under my control. den u will DIE AND SUFFER IN MY HANDS. I WILL MAKE MY REVENGE! u better leave my mum. yes, u better. don bcos everytime i nvr tok back u think i good to bully. there's limits to my patience ok.
2day is the day, i looked myself in awe. i cant believe i did all these things. sry nack for hurting u, my heart hurts too! i'hv got no choice, u gotta understand. if i'hv gone crazy 1 day, somebody jus push me down the building. i duwan to go to jail. i wan to end my life at tt v moment. serious, if i did smth wrong, i wish sum1 can end my life, i'll be grateful to u.
wad happened wad happened?!?! i'm worried dere's retribution to me nx tym, but i did this for self defence, if i dun do this, i'll be sry to myself, sry to my mum. jus bcos of playing mahjong at home, and u are not happy? and pls, even if u are not happy, dun vent ur anger on my mum! she's also got parent! dun tell me u dun hv?! wan tell tell me ok, u r unhappy w me, not my mum! so pls, tell me! u tink ui are v big?! pls, u are not. i dun look up to u AT ALL! cos u are a LOSER! BIG BIG LOSER! PUI MY SALIVA AT U!
yes, i lose my mind 2day! i slammed de cupboards, the toilet door, and i even break a pail. i'm crazy. no, i'm angry. v angry. i jus dun understand wats his bloody pblm? can he speak nicely? if u are not happy, dun cum back and vent all ur angers on us. we are not ur puppets. u tink u wan slap me u can? i gif u slap u oso dun dare, so? LOSER! if u dare slap me, i'll SUE U! COS U ARE NOT MY FATHER! cum on lah, my dad doesn't even beat me. so who are u to do it? i dun care hu are u! COS U ARE NOT EVEN NICE TO MY MUM. but hey, this have not ended yet. when huatts cum back, there's round 2. i'm not afraid to cum up and protect my family, cos it's my responsibility. the onli ting dat i lack of is money, CASH! enuf money so i could bring my family back to our own hse to stay, den we are off ur clutches! u tink we really need u so much? u are jus a burden. since u like to tell my mum and scold my mum, u wan me to go to ur mum and spill everything u did to us, and make her heartache? pls, maybe unfortunately, u'll lose ur mum! but huh! i dun tink u gif a damn, the most u jus drop a few crocodile tears and u are back to ur own life. u only have frens. u are a BIG FAILURE! u jus sucks to the core, i dun respect u anymore, u made me change opinion of u, 2day. WATCH OUT!
did not went for POA ppr 2day, gif up, i tot i finished learing everything, but i was wrong. i woke up early morn to study, omg, i saw depreciation, incomplete records and wat wat wat, i gif up. i went back to sleep and went to canteen. i'm left w 2 more pprs. SS and Sci MCQ. WOO! i'm off the hook, i'm gg to earn money!
Friday, October 31, 2008
Thursday, October 30, 2008
HAIS! i'm feeling so bored, i'm feeling so bad, i wanna cry!!!!
my math sucks 2day. the time was not enough for me. and i started to panick agn. den when i bring out the qn ppr to do agn, i realise i can do it. and i lose marks jus like dat! maybe i'm gg to sit for o's again nx yr! hais, i duwan to fail my math u noe? sobs! i'm so angry w myself too! i woke up 4 in the morning for the sake of an A for my math, and i studied vectors and probability, and vectors came out oni 1 mark, and i fucking dun understand wad the probability is asking.
CB!i cant stop being angry w myself! i feel i'm such a dissapointment! get an A? omg, now i oni hope for a mere pass! HAIS! so angry, but no one noes. i'm feeling so depressed oso. for some _ _ _ _ _ reason. y is it oways
_ _ _ _ _ problems? faster go poly, i wanna make new _ _ _ _ _!!!! i jus hate myself! the new year faster cum! everything will start afresh! HAIS! maybe i should jus lower down my expectations. the higher the expectations, the higher the dissapointment. i finally get to understand this sentence. but only at this time, it's too bloody late. if i really fail my math this time, i seriously dunoe wad course to go to, i hopefully wanna go to a good course and excel! jus hope dat my math can pass, my sci and humans can pass, everything doesnt matter anymore. gif me a chance, i will excel like nbdy's business nx year. all i need is 1 more chance. HAIS!
tmr is my poa ppr, waking up early to study oso, den gg to mum's stall, cos huatts gg sch. dunoe, maybe i feel quite sian, actually can dun go, but my mum dat day fall down, v pain. so i go help her bah, HAIS! 1 more SS ppr and my written ppr is done and over with. left 2 mcq, but i oso cnt slack, mus do well. hais...
my math sucks 2day. the time was not enough for me. and i started to panick agn. den when i bring out the qn ppr to do agn, i realise i can do it. and i lose marks jus like dat! maybe i'm gg to sit for o's again nx yr! hais, i duwan to fail my math u noe? sobs! i'm so angry w myself too! i woke up 4 in the morning for the sake of an A for my math, and i studied vectors and probability, and vectors came out oni 1 mark, and i fucking dun understand wad the probability is asking.
CB!i cant stop being angry w myself! i feel i'm such a dissapointment! get an A? omg, now i oni hope for a mere pass! HAIS! so angry, but no one noes. i'm feeling so depressed oso. for some _ _ _ _ _ reason. y is it oways
_ _ _ _ _ problems? faster go poly, i wanna make new _ _ _ _ _!!!! i jus hate myself! the new year faster cum! everything will start afresh! HAIS! maybe i should jus lower down my expectations. the higher the expectations, the higher the dissapointment. i finally get to understand this sentence. but only at this time, it's too bloody late. if i really fail my math this time, i seriously dunoe wad course to go to, i hopefully wanna go to a good course and excel! jus hope dat my math can pass, my sci and humans can pass, everything doesnt matter anymore. gif me a chance, i will excel like nbdy's business nx year. all i need is 1 more chance. HAIS!
tmr is my poa ppr, waking up early to study oso, den gg to mum's stall, cos huatts gg sch. dunoe, maybe i feel quite sian, actually can dun go, but my mum dat day fall down, v pain. so i go help her bah, HAIS! 1 more SS ppr and my written ppr is done and over with. left 2 mcq, but i oso cnt slack, mus do well. hais...
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
ooh!!! 5 more pprs and i'm OFF THE HOOK! hahahaha1 so shuang! but this 5 pprs is stretched over 2 weeks. so lame! waste my time lor!
anyway, did my phy ppr 2day, i was LIKE SO EASY CAN! but i dunoe how to do. cos i forget the formulas!!!!!!! omg! I JUST HATE IT MAN! i was happily memorising it when i was on the way to the exam. den when i flip open the 1st pg, i dunoe how to do alrdy, and everything screwed up! bloody hell. and as i flip to the back, all the formulas start to dissappear!!!!!!! OMFG OMFG! PISSED OFF AND ANGRY W MYSELF! ASSHOLE. ahh! and i loss 14 marks of uncompleted work and blanks. the rest still ok. hope that section B can help me pull up, cos section B is so easy, i can do! PLS PLS PLS! OMG! i'm so worried. still got 1 more sci mcq, hope will not screw up!
tmr is my math 2. omg! and i'm done w math. but i hope is easy, cos ppr 1 SUCKS! dammit. hais! sianess! sianess!
eat dinner and it's time to mug! rest early too! TMR IS MORN PPR! UUSH!
anyway, did my phy ppr 2day, i was LIKE SO EASY CAN! but i dunoe how to do. cos i forget the formulas!!!!!!! omg! I JUST HATE IT MAN! i was happily memorising it when i was on the way to the exam. den when i flip open the 1st pg, i dunoe how to do alrdy, and everything screwed up! bloody hell. and as i flip to the back, all the formulas start to dissappear!!!!!!! OMFG OMFG! PISSED OFF AND ANGRY W MYSELF! ASSHOLE. ahh! and i loss 14 marks of uncompleted work and blanks. the rest still ok. hope that section B can help me pull up, cos section B is so easy, i can do! PLS PLS PLS! OMG! i'm so worried. still got 1 more sci mcq, hope will not screw up!
tmr is my math 2. omg! and i'm done w math. but i hope is easy, cos ppr 1 SUCKS! dammit. hais! sianess! sianess!
eat dinner and it's time to mug! rest early too! TMR IS MORN PPR! UUSH!
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
ooh. MIA ytd. hehe. so lazy to post oso. ahh. so bloody slack too!
tmr hving phy ppr in the aftnn, it's my 5th! i'm half way there! YEAH! but i oso hope it's a success! i duwana fail agn! ahh. damn damn damn.
had tuition jus now, was my last session w TT, cos i guess there's no need for help anymore, the impt subjs are all over! omg, quite sad. haha! and his is gg to leave fot the states in dec. cnt see my results le eh! shall work hard for u! hehe! yes yes! i'll work double hard! until u cum back and see me succeed! HUMPH!
2 more weeks and i finish my exam, the lamest is nx week mon, SS ppr and den stop till nx nx week de 2 MCQ! YEAH! and i'm really free. hafta start to look for job le! YEAH! tink until exam finish so happy, but i scare take result and don't do well agn. HAIS! when i tink of the fun, i shud work double hard! cos i duwan to fail agn!
UUSH KAILING! =DD
tmr hving phy ppr in the aftnn, it's my 5th! i'm half way there! YEAH! but i oso hope it's a success! i duwana fail agn! ahh. damn damn damn.
had tuition jus now, was my last session w TT, cos i guess there's no need for help anymore, the impt subjs are all over! omg, quite sad. haha! and his is gg to leave fot the states in dec. cnt see my results le eh! shall work hard for u! hehe! yes yes! i'll work double hard! until u cum back and see me succeed! HUMPH!
2 more weeks and i finish my exam, the lamest is nx week mon, SS ppr and den stop till nx nx week de 2 MCQ! YEAH! and i'm really free. hafta start to look for job le! YEAH! tink until exam finish so happy, but i scare take result and don't do well agn. HAIS! when i tink of the fun, i shud work double hard! cos i duwan to fail agn!
UUSH KAILING! =DD
Sunday, October 26, 2008
walao! sian! i acidentally deleted jus now dat post sia! now hv to retype. i jus now oso hvn type finish de lor! KNN! pissed off.
i said,
2day was a very boring day! SUNDAYS ARE BORING! nth to do. still got tmr de public holiday, i'm not gg to have fun u noe! gg to chiong my poa poa poa! like mad! humph! dun believe this time cnt get a pass. bloody hell. lazy to type lah! BORED!
i said,
2day was a very boring day! SUNDAYS ARE BORING! nth to do. still got tmr de public holiday, i'm not gg to have fun u noe! gg to chiong my poa poa poa! like mad! humph! dun believe this time cnt get a pass. bloody hell. lazy to type lah! BORED!
ahh. super tired. the day has finally ended! the BBQ was a long long day. and i'm feeling sleepy now. ZZZ. didn't help out much actually. but at least i did help. urgh. and i got a bloody haircut sia, don like it at all lor. damn. hais! regret it!!! nvm, take it as trim, my hair faster grow back to when i hvn cut!
and! i did not serve xian and fer. so sorry! i entertained myself by walking nack oni. sry sry, nx tym will be better. den bout 8+ 9 went home to clean up nack. and mahjong w huatts and his friends. lol. and listened to de radio, the 93.3fm, live on the dunoe wad award, and started singing. woot! mus go kbox aft 0's. hehe. yeap yeap! so tired, tmr morn hving breakfast w dad, cum back chiong poa lo! UUSH! =)
i love my frens! and i noe u love me too! haha!
and! i did not serve xian and fer. so sorry! i entertained myself by walking nack oni. sry sry, nx tym will be better. den bout 8+ 9 went home to clean up nack. and mahjong w huatts and his friends. lol. and listened to de radio, the 93.3fm, live on the dunoe wad award, and started singing. woot! mus go kbox aft 0's. hehe. yeap yeap! so tired, tmr morn hving breakfast w dad, cum back chiong poa lo! UUSH! =)
i love my frens! and i noe u love me too! haha!
Friday, October 24, 2008
ooh! sian. cos 2days math ppr was like wad the HECK?! damn dat setter man. damn! DAMN! was so difficult. and so many bloody alot of calculations! WE ARE HUMAN! NOT CALCULATOR! damn. and some qn i oso dunoe wat dey asking lor. walao. and not enuf time to do. and i left the whole page of bloody vectors empty! damn. super sian lor.
and den aft dat i cabbed down to mum's store, chatted w the customers! so happy leh! and when i came back, i got a shock out of my life. ha, no lah, so exagerating. lol. nack cut hair le! so clean and neat! hehe.
and i slept the bloody whole aftnn. and missed 2 calls frm TT. lazy to call back lah, of not he oso ask me how de. walao. PPR 2 MUS UUSH LIAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YEAH! tmr's de BBQ! too bad rong cnt cum, but nvm, we still young! got plenty of chances! =)))
and den aft dat i cabbed down to mum's store, chatted w the customers! so happy leh! and when i came back, i got a shock out of my life. ha, no lah, so exagerating. lol. nack cut hair le! so clean and neat! hehe.
and i slept the bloody whole aftnn. and missed 2 calls frm TT. lazy to call back lah, of not he oso ask me how de. walao. PPR 2 MUS UUSH LIAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YEAH! tmr's de BBQ! too bad rong cnt cum, but nvm, we still young! got plenty of chances! =)))
Thursday, October 23, 2008
ooh ooh ooh. wat a tired day 2day, shud say i morn 3am wake up until now hvn slp. 2day went to help mum in her stall cos got 1 shop nvr sell. budden not alot of ppl oso, cos raining. waste my time. =.=" den abt 11 i took taxi home to prepare for exams. woo. b4 i went out, i witness buddy bite huatts. walao. dat insane dog!! biting both of us sia. tmr kords cum back dunoe will bite him ernot. hurrhurr. mus warn kords 1st. lol. if not he go back all blueblack. cos v pain lah!
2days ppr was quite easy, if u did study. but i didnt. lol. i opened the book and i slept agn. bllody hell. but browse thru the tys 2day morn, got some info here and there. hehe. ok lah. hope can pass lah, tnr is math P1 lor. yeah! den gg to take taxi to mum's stall agn, tmr anth stall nvr open lah. lol. tmr confirm enjoy myself lor, cos i so miss de customers lah! lol.
v fast sat le leh, gg to hv de BBQ ler! can see xian and fer, too bad rong cnt cum lah, her cousin wedding. nvm, still hv nx tym de!
2days ppr was quite easy, if u did study. but i didnt. lol. i opened the book and i slept agn. bllody hell. but browse thru the tys 2day morn, got some info here and there. hehe. ok lah. hope can pass lah, tnr is math P1 lor. yeah! den gg to take taxi to mum's stall agn, tmr anth stall nvr open lah. lol. tmr confirm enjoy myself lor, cos i so miss de customers lah! lol.
v fast sat le leh, gg to hv de BBQ ler! can see xian and fer, too bad rong cnt cum lah, her cousin wedding. nvm, still hv nx tym de!
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
wow wow wow! sian. hais. so bored today, didn't chiong my geog 2day at all. cos is so sian lor. walao eh. damn. i slept the whole aftnn again. my panda eyes!! omg. tmr gg to exam, hope will not flunk, got pass ok liao lah..
the day b4 i had a bad encounter. lol. so eerie. i dreamt bout farenheit de wu chun cum our hse. lol. and we chit chat and all. walao. den ytd my mum bring back the newspaper is bout him oso! eating at newtion centre. lol. so coincidence. den when i watrch tv, i saw dat farenheit cuming to s'pore to hold concert! WOA PIANG! lol. maybe i shud go? ha, and maybe can win some lucky prize or wat. HAHAHA!!!
the day b4 i had a bad encounter. lol. so eerie. i dreamt bout farenheit de wu chun cum our hse. lol. and we chit chat and all. walao. den ytd my mum bring back the newspaper is bout him oso! eating at newtion centre. lol. so coincidence. den when i watrch tv, i saw dat farenheit cuming to s'pore to hold concert! WOA PIANG! lol. maybe i shud go? ha, and maybe can win some lucky prize or wat. HAHAHA!!!
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
woo!!~ wad a slack day 2day lah. major event today, mission failed! huatts staying at NA. walao. and i cried infront of the VP and TT. damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn embarressed! damn damn damn damn paiseh. maybe i jus pity huatts bah. hais! don laugh at me okay! i emo let u see. bloody hell.
ahh! wat's done cnt be undone. ZZZ. wateva wateva. humph! damn. embarressed myself in and out in and out! aiya, heck care, den we accompany TT go eat his breakfast cum luch. big appetite leh! walao. now i noe how much u eat. HAHAHAHAHA! huatts! JIAYOU OKAY! I SUPPORT U! UUSH UUSH UUSH! ha.
2day didn't study geog. on did map reading. cos really is sian de lor. was tinking if wanna opt out ernot. walao. cos really sian de lor. tmr take out all de worksheet study liao lah, txtbk is so bored! and i still hv my poa. ZZZ! ahh! so sian lor, hais. tmr nack cut hair oso, so BBQ dat day he can neat neat. ha. lol. ooh, i'm so tired 2day, craving for japanese food man! i wanna go sakae. i wanna go sakae! ha, damn. all these fun mus leave aft o's lah. sian. was thinking if i wanna call fesco tmr, wanna find job, wanna work, wanna buy things. woot! alot of money! money cum money cum! hahaha!!!
ahh! wat's done cnt be undone. ZZZ. wateva wateva. humph! damn. embarressed myself in and out in and out! aiya, heck care, den we accompany TT go eat his breakfast cum luch. big appetite leh! walao. now i noe how much u eat. HAHAHAHAHA! huatts! JIAYOU OKAY! I SUPPORT U! UUSH UUSH UUSH! ha.
2day didn't study geog. on did map reading. cos really is sian de lor. was tinking if wanna opt out ernot. walao. cos really sian de lor. tmr take out all de worksheet study liao lah, txtbk is so bored! and i still hv my poa. ZZZ! ahh! so sian lor, hais. tmr nack cut hair oso, so BBQ dat day he can neat neat. ha. lol. ooh, i'm so tired 2day, craving for japanese food man! i wanna go sakae. i wanna go sakae! ha, damn. all these fun mus leave aft o's lah. sian. was thinking if i wanna call fesco tmr, wanna find job, wanna work, wanna buy things. woot! alot of money! money cum money cum! hahaha!!!
Monday, October 20, 2008
hoho! did my chem ppr 2day, think i quite confused leh. i dunoe if i did correctly or wrongly. de answers are quite straightfoward, and my answers are short, cos i see dat the marks are like 1 or 2 oni. hais. so i quite confused whether my answer is correct or wrong, if correct, my answer will be correct, if wrong, den my answer oso worng lor. LAME! ok lah, hope can lor. humph. so i oso hope i'm correct lah. hehe.
hais, and i had a bad night ytd, didn't sleep well at all. i keep dreaming bout chemistry lessons when i was in hkss and hving tuition, and all the practical and all. i keep waking up. walao. sian. and got alot of mosquitoes bite me oso. so itchy. sian. lucky the medicated oil is within rch. ahh, chem is finally over. tmr is a new chiong day, for geog.
and, bad news, huatts drop to NA. he so sad jus now, and i saw him cry, for the 1st tym, not bcos i bully him, lol. and i oso v long didn't see him cry alrdy, cos he grow up le=) but jus now saw him cry, i dunoe how to an wei him. of tmr can, i go his sch to help him appeal. cos he fail his eng and geog, but his math and sci all got As andBs. so i wanna help him appeal. of cnt, maybe wan help him change sch. uush!
okay okay, i'm gg to shower le! cos so hot leh! =)
GOD, please assist me in helping huatts appeal successful, and that he will be strong, no matter wat is the outcome. even if appeal not successful, i oso hope dat changing of sch is a smooth process for him. i oso pray dat mum's injury will heal asap, and dat all will be healthy and strong. thanks Father.
hais, and i had a bad night ytd, didn't sleep well at all. i keep dreaming bout chemistry lessons when i was in hkss and hving tuition, and all the practical and all. i keep waking up. walao. sian. and got alot of mosquitoes bite me oso. so itchy. sian. lucky the medicated oil is within rch. ahh, chem is finally over. tmr is a new chiong day, for geog.
and, bad news, huatts drop to NA. he so sad jus now, and i saw him cry, for the 1st tym, not bcos i bully him, lol. and i oso v long didn't see him cry alrdy, cos he grow up le=) but jus now saw him cry, i dunoe how to an wei him. of tmr can, i go his sch to help him appeal. cos he fail his eng and geog, but his math and sci all got As andBs. so i wanna help him appeal. of cnt, maybe wan help him change sch. uush!
okay okay, i'm gg to shower le! cos so hot leh! =)
GOD, please assist me in helping huatts appeal successful, and that he will be strong, no matter wat is the outcome. even if appeal not successful, i oso hope dat changing of sch is a smooth process for him. i oso pray dat mum's injury will heal asap, and dat all will be healthy and strong. thanks Father.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
hais! i'm so stressed lah! humph! and sian. cos my lappy de letter M spoil. bloody hell. maybe jus now i dump it on the floor, den when i use, spoil liao. den i did my usual same stupid pattern agn, i did a stunt. i pluck out de covering of it. den now is kosong de lor. and huatts is mendling w it! and he broke it. lol. den he fixed it back agn,, lol! and i did anth stunt, hammer it w my hand. lol. now ok liao lor. kekeke! ok liao. lol.
hais, nw so happy. jus now so sad. i cried. hais. i'm so stressed lah! hais! i was hving tuition, and i asked TT smth. he was not answering my qn. and i ask him agn and agn. and he finally shouted, sounding so pissed off. IRON IS EITHER 2+ or 3+ LAH! DON ASK ME WHY! i wanted to ask him how to balance the formula, and i quite turned off, and i tink his loudness really scared me, cos i was so depressed w myself agn. den i kept quiet for he whole tuition, and had teary eyes, hais. i cnt show. if he ask, i confirm cry. i promised myself to be strong and must be able to hold back my tears. and when he left, i finally cnt take it anymore, chiong to the toilet and let off some steam, cos i'm really v stress. but i mus be strong. i mus achieve good marks. i'm gg to wake up early tmr morn to mug! get enuf rest 1st, better listen to fer... getting enuf rest is impt. this few days turn panda alrdy. cos i seriously wanna do well. i duwanna dissapoint my parents and myself and of cos TT, giving me so much patience yeah. thanks=).
i'm feeling so stressed bcos there's a target this time. and i wanna meet it. and i feel more stress den last yr. i guess cos this time i'm getting serious alrdy. last yr was a wasted year. i cnt afford to waste anymore tym. no matter where i go nx year, be it poly or ite, i mus work extra extra hard. i wanna be the top few. i wan to get good apportunities when i grow up. so i must be strong and hardworking. i mus be disciplined. disciplined to tell my mind to work hard, cnt lazy, cnt procrastinate, and i mus be nice. this few days i'm working so hard to be a changed person, in my attitude and in my speech. but when i'm happy, i'm back to my original self agn. i'm laughing so loud. ha. okay okay, dat's me lah. lol. like speaker liddat, got my mum's family de genes, no choice.
okay, i'm gg to sleep alrdy, tmr waking up to study study! chiong chiong chiong! mug mug mug! it's a brand new week for me! brand new life! and fri so suay until 2day. fri i got bitten my buddy, blueblack. den ytd i wanted to smack nack de butt, smack until de door, blublack, and buddy bute me this afternnon, a lil swollen. lol. this 2 dogs making me bruised. ha! and i went to the BBQ ytd! until quite late! had so much fun! princesses, all the WAy!!!
GOD, pls gif me the strength to be strong and to be disciplined. thank YOU.
hais, nw so happy. jus now so sad. i cried. hais. i'm so stressed lah! hais! i was hving tuition, and i asked TT smth. he was not answering my qn. and i ask him agn and agn. and he finally shouted, sounding so pissed off. IRON IS EITHER 2+ or 3+ LAH! DON ASK ME WHY! i wanted to ask him how to balance the formula, and i quite turned off, and i tink his loudness really scared me, cos i was so depressed w myself agn. den i kept quiet for he whole tuition, and had teary eyes, hais. i cnt show. if he ask, i confirm cry. i promised myself to be strong and must be able to hold back my tears. and when he left, i finally cnt take it anymore, chiong to the toilet and let off some steam, cos i'm really v stress. but i mus be strong. i mus achieve good marks. i'm gg to wake up early tmr morn to mug! get enuf rest 1st, better listen to fer... getting enuf rest is impt. this few days turn panda alrdy. cos i seriously wanna do well. i duwanna dissapoint my parents and myself and of cos TT, giving me so much patience yeah. thanks=).
i'm feeling so stressed bcos there's a target this time. and i wanna meet it. and i feel more stress den last yr. i guess cos this time i'm getting serious alrdy. last yr was a wasted year. i cnt afford to waste anymore tym. no matter where i go nx year, be it poly or ite, i mus work extra extra hard. i wanna be the top few. i wan to get good apportunities when i grow up. so i must be strong and hardworking. i mus be disciplined. disciplined to tell my mind to work hard, cnt lazy, cnt procrastinate, and i mus be nice. this few days i'm working so hard to be a changed person, in my attitude and in my speech. but when i'm happy, i'm back to my original self agn. i'm laughing so loud. ha. okay okay, dat's me lah. lol. like speaker liddat, got my mum's family de genes, no choice.
okay, i'm gg to sleep alrdy, tmr waking up to study study! chiong chiong chiong! mug mug mug! it's a brand new week for me! brand new life! and fri so suay until 2day. fri i got bitten my buddy, blueblack. den ytd i wanted to smack nack de butt, smack until de door, blublack, and buddy bute me this afternnon, a lil swollen. lol. this 2 dogs making me bruised. ha! and i went to the BBQ ytd! until quite late! had so much fun! princesses, all the WAy!!!
GOD, pls gif me the strength to be strong and to be disciplined. thank YOU.
Friday, October 17, 2008
woo!!! 1st post after my practical ytd. haha. 3 words.
CANNOT MAKE IT!!!! LOL! really quite diff i tink, 1st 4 my phy, this experiment was nvr done b4, lucky de instructions was clear. den my results for my 1st experiment and 2nd experiment is de same. so my average is de same. damn. hope phy can. cos i noe my chem is cnt de lor. i did as instructed. but when de person on the other side of my bench wanted to wash de test tubes, i saw her soloution all black and brown de, my darkest is orange de leh! and it's CLEAR ORANGE. wakao. scare. no confidence at all. but i swear i will do well in my other ppr.
and i oso received de JAE booklet alrdy. den de facaulty i want to be in de COP is 1
12 okay!!! damn. but hope i can get all B 4 de pprs i retaking, will be good enuf. i oso see dat all de course de COP so high. so hard. =((
oh oh! and 2day is so hot. aft my shower and i'm still perspiring like wad. now still got some wind. HOT! hmm, 2day oso 1st day of GB de annual camp. haha! tmr got bbq, hope can go. mum asking aunty lin cuming over, den dunoe she cuming ernot. i oso msg marie and xian, but none of dem reply me. lol. tink dey will take donkey years to reply. haha! heck care. i wan go viwawa liao!
BUCK UP FOR THE REST OF THE PAPERS!!!! =))
CANNOT MAKE IT!!!! LOL! really quite diff i tink, 1st 4 my phy, this experiment was nvr done b4, lucky de instructions was clear. den my results for my 1st experiment and 2nd experiment is de same. so my average is de same. damn. hope phy can. cos i noe my chem is cnt de lor. i did as instructed. but when de person on the other side of my bench wanted to wash de test tubes, i saw her soloution all black and brown de, my darkest is orange de leh! and it's CLEAR ORANGE. wakao. scare. no confidence at all. but i swear i will do well in my other ppr.
and i oso received de JAE booklet alrdy. den de facaulty i want to be in de COP is 1
12 okay!!! damn. but hope i can get all B 4 de pprs i retaking, will be good enuf. i oso see dat all de course de COP so high. so hard. =((
oh oh! and 2day is so hot. aft my shower and i'm still perspiring like wad. now still got some wind. HOT! hmm, 2day oso 1st day of GB de annual camp. haha! tmr got bbq, hope can go. mum asking aunty lin cuming over, den dunoe she cuming ernot. i oso msg marie and xian, but none of dem reply me. lol. tink dey will take donkey years to reply. haha! heck care. i wan go viwawa liao!
BUCK UP FOR THE REST OF THE PAPERS!!!! =))
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
HAIS! it will be good if sumone can cum and bring me away... far far away. away frm my exams, away frm my frens, away frm my family. cos i tink it's time dat i wanna be alone. alone. maybe i'm feeling de exam stress now. i hope everything will tide down after exams.
i wanna cry. i duwan to tink so much. but when u are alone, u tink bout this and dat and everything dat you can tink of. hais. it;s increasing the load dat i'm carrying now, my exams load. the day aft nx is my sci practical alrdy, and i'm mugging my sci like nbdy's business. cos i wanna do well.
god bless me, everything will be ok agn.
COUNTDOWN: 2DAYS
i wanna cry. i duwan to tink so much. but when u are alone, u tink bout this and dat and everything dat you can tink of. hais. it;s increasing the load dat i'm carrying now, my exams load. the day aft nx is my sci practical alrdy, and i'm mugging my sci like nbdy's business. cos i wanna do well.
god bless me, everything will be ok agn.
COUNTDOWN: 2DAYS
Sunday, October 12, 2008
hmm, anth bored sunday. hais. thurs is my sci practical le, so fast. how i wished i was younger, if time could run back, where everything starts all over agn.
i wanna live my childhood days more memorable,
i wouldn't eat myself so fat,
i wouldn't be lazy,
i wouldn't be so selfish,
i wouldn't wan to be attension seeker,
i wouldn't make everybody so miserable.
i wanna live my childhood days more memorable,
i wouldn't eat myself so fat,
i wouldn't be lazy,
i wouldn't be so selfish,
i wouldn't wan to be attension seeker,
i wouldn't make everybody so miserable.
hais, aft a few days at home, i ponder bout the past. such a selfish person i am, oni tink abt myself. i'm selfish towards my family, my friends and those ppl ard me. i'm such a proud person. why didn't i realise all these earlier. i'm so sorry. hais.
i wanna change! i wanna be a caring person, i wanna be strong! i wanna change everything! i oways tot dat i'm a nice and thoughtful person, oways able to gif in, and oways the 1 accomodating ppl. but tink, tink, u realise u are not dat good, dere are room for improvement, but dat includes if u are willing to change.
why am i pondering abt such issues when o's are cuming?
cos i realised my frens and i are drifting apart.
they share de secrets which i don't,
dey share de same topic dat i don't,
dey seems to have a different look towards me,
dey seems to be laughing at me,
dey,,.......
i'm so scared to see it.
i dunoe wat to do....
COUNTDOWN: 4 DAYS
Saturday, October 11, 2008
another day passed. o's are cuming, i'm scared alrdy. tmr is tuition, mus mug finish my phy and ask anything i dunoe. hais. been procrastinating agn!! CNT CNT CNT! jus came back frm bbq at cheverons. sian. dunoe wat to do now, so clueless! so tired frm everything!
I CNT LET HISTORY REPEAT ITSELF!
I WANNA GRADUATE!
I WANNA WORK!
I WANNA GROW UP!
I WANNA BE STRONGER MENTALLY!
hais. mus hardworking, cnt lazy! mus overcome! no time alrdy. and i guess it's time to slim down. lol. cos nx yr cousin gg to hv his wedding dinner, i wanna wear nicely too! =))
COUNTDOWN: 5 DAYS
I CNT LET HISTORY REPEAT ITSELF!
I WANNA GRADUATE!
I WANNA WORK!
I WANNA GROW UP!
I WANNA BE STRONGER MENTALLY!
hais. mus hardworking, cnt lazy! mus overcome! no time alrdy. and i guess it's time to slim down. lol. cos nx yr cousin gg to hv his wedding dinner, i wanna wear nicely too! =))
COUNTDOWN: 5 DAYS
Friday, October 10, 2008
woo, at home, sian! study study study! it's been few days since i blog. lol. actually few days oni lah, so exaggerating. lol. wed went kushinbo w rong and fer, we did not take any picture, lol.. cos we were too full. lol. i arrived late dat day, and i rushed into the restaurant. den i was looking for dem, when i saw dem, dey told me, DERE, DE MOST THINGS DE TABLE! lol, when i saw, i was like woa! so i went to sit down. den when i seat down alrdy, de both of dem still taking, i was wondering, can i help? lol, really no space to put liao lor. lol. den we eat eat eat, got this bell, DONG DONG DONG, 1 2 3, we are kuishinbo, den we saw alot of ppl rushing off to queue. budden until me no more. suay, is baked lobster. den de 2nd time me and rong got it, but not v nice lor. haha. but had a fun day dat day.
and ytd was a day at home... i make mee hoon kuay for mum to eat, actually wanna serve her aft she bath, hu noes, she hv to help me make. ytd was my 1st attmpt ok, but don taste so good. lol. nx tym will be better. ha. so tired aft kneading de dough, ytd night hand pain, lol. but nvm lah, mum eat until shuang jiu ok le.
2day is de new aunty work de last day at work. she keep complaining she not used to it, but my mum oso got say, she helping out bcum more busier, hais. so hard to find worker hor. hmm. where to find a hardworking and easy to work w de lady leh? mon mum busy agn. huatts faster holiday go help mum uh! good boy kay, hehe. =))
rong and fer in genting enjoing themselves! woot!
kailing is here mugging!!! =)
COUNTDOWN: 6 DAYS, IT'S NX THURS!
1 MORE WEEK!!
and ytd was a day at home... i make mee hoon kuay for mum to eat, actually wanna serve her aft she bath, hu noes, she hv to help me make. ytd was my 1st attmpt ok, but don taste so good. lol. nx tym will be better. ha. so tired aft kneading de dough, ytd night hand pain, lol. but nvm lah, mum eat until shuang jiu ok le.
2day is de new aunty work de last day at work. she keep complaining she not used to it, but my mum oso got say, she helping out bcum more busier, hais. so hard to find worker hor. hmm. where to find a hardworking and easy to work w de lady leh? mon mum busy agn. huatts faster holiday go help mum uh! good boy kay, hehe. =))
rong and fer in genting enjoing themselves! woot!
kailing is here mugging!!! =)
COUNTDOWN: 6 DAYS, IT'S NX THURS!
1 MORE WEEK!!
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
ooh, i'm at home!!! haha. ytd de aunty cum, and she did work. she is 67 yrs old ok, but she bloodily dun look like 67, she look so young! win liao lor, my mum hire de 2 aunty complexion so nice de. hhaha. my mum and me need to stand 1 side le. this aunty is oso english ed ok. walao. when she tok to me in english i was like?!?!?!?! hah. shocked dao. lol. but she cnt speak good chi lor. lol. she gg to help my mum until my O's finish. but i tell my mum alrdy aft my O's, either i go out find job or i gg to help my aunt, i duwan to work for her le, but i'll share w her my salary. =))
ltr gg out w rong and fer, jus go IMM lah, i wan go daiso and buy Nack de put on the floor let him urine dat 1. ha, dunoe how to say. den fer wan go food court eat korean food. but i now so hungry alrdy, ytd viwawaing w dem dat time i alrdy hungry liao lor. lol.
finally i can study lor, ltr cum back frm IMM is mass chiong phy and chem liao. den geog and ss, den POA! woots! exams faster cum and go! hahaha!
LIANG KAI LING! JIAYOU! HURRHURR! =))
COUNTDOWN: 9 DAYS
ltr gg out w rong and fer, jus go IMM lah, i wan go daiso and buy Nack de put on the floor let him urine dat 1. ha, dunoe how to say. den fer wan go food court eat korean food. but i now so hungry alrdy, ytd viwawaing w dem dat time i alrdy hungry liao lor. lol.
finally i can study lor, ltr cum back frm IMM is mass chiong phy and chem liao. den geog and ss, den POA! woots! exams faster cum and go! hahaha!
LIANG KAI LING! JIAYOU! HURRHURR! =))
COUNTDOWN: 9 DAYS
Sunday, October 05, 2008
omg omg omg omg omg omg 0mg. wat a sunday!! sundays are oways so boring can. hais.
ytd had tuition. omg. yes, omg. tuition oways make me so headache lor. and bored ok. but mus buck up. exams cuming. and TT free me tuition for anth 1hr and den he went to play dunoe wat w huatts. on the board de, de use finger and TAN. ha. like pool liddat. dunoe lah. den aft dat quickly change and went to aunt's place for facial. pain dao. woot. budden so happy. dunoe y. haha! ooh. and my sat jus pass liddat. but when i came home, viwawa w fer, rong and siying. siying cheat de lor, ask me gif her cards. i gif her 1 time, den tio cheat, den no more. haha! viwawa until 12 liddat? i oso dunoe de time, i half asleep alrdy. lol. den aft tt, really v fast jiu knock out. lol.
woo. tmr gg to work agn! in the morning w mum. den 7+ will have 1 aunty cum interview, hope she can work, den i can chiong my o's liao. hehehe!
ltr i wan eat Mac! craving for it lor! =)) cravings make me fat. walao. eat liao den say lah! hahaha!
COUNTDOWN: 12 DAYS
ytd had tuition. omg. yes, omg. tuition oways make me so headache lor. and bored ok. but mus buck up. exams cuming. and TT free me tuition for anth 1hr and den he went to play dunoe wat w huatts. on the board de, de use finger and TAN. ha. like pool liddat. dunoe lah. den aft dat quickly change and went to aunt's place for facial. pain dao. woot. budden so happy. dunoe y. haha! ooh. and my sat jus pass liddat. but when i came home, viwawa w fer, rong and siying. siying cheat de lor, ask me gif her cards. i gif her 1 time, den tio cheat, den no more. haha! viwawa until 12 liddat? i oso dunoe de time, i half asleep alrdy. lol. den aft tt, really v fast jiu knock out. lol.
woo. tmr gg to work agn! in the morning w mum. den 7+ will have 1 aunty cum interview, hope she can work, den i can chiong my o's liao. hehehe!
ltr i wan eat Mac! craving for it lor! =)) cravings make me fat. walao. eat liao den say lah! hahaha!
COUNTDOWN: 12 DAYS
Friday, October 03, 2008
woo!! it's fri again! how days pass yeah, i'm gg to hv my exams soon!
congrats to rong and fer! u finally finished ur attachment alrdy! woot! hah. so shuang ah, can go genting le. i oso hope the 16th faster cum, i wan go exam, and work work work! earn alot alot alot of money, i wanna go overseas! hurrhurr. shuang lor. woot!
tmr got exam, hvn do hmwk, tmr morn wake up do lor. sian. hehe.
COUNTDOWN: 13 DAYS
congrats to rong and fer! u finally finished ur attachment alrdy! woot! hah. so shuang ah, can go genting le. i oso hope the 16th faster cum, i wan go exam, and work work work! earn alot alot alot of money, i wanna go overseas! hurrhurr. shuang lor. woot!
tmr got exam, hvn do hmwk, tmr morn wake up do lor. sian. hehe.
COUNTDOWN: 13 DAYS
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