bahhhh... i feel like talking very slowly now. so if u duwan to listen to it, dont talk to me.

omg im like a dead corpse now, im awake, but my brain is empty. pfft. i want to motivation and in need of some creative juice now. where to buy?

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during the holidays, i kept gg back to sch wanting to finish my assignment. but i did not complete my assignment, only halfway and now other work is piling up alrdy. this is not a joke i feel so stressed up. i want this semester to end, i want to watch alot of movies and have fun everyday!

i also went to donate blood. omg i have no idea where did i pluck up the courage from but i tell you when i was there, im like a ball-less dick. my palms were sweating all the way from checkup until the thing tube was removed. im so scared so scared so scared. almost on the verge of crying.

but overall, lucky still not pain. and i feel really great aft that! the only thing i am proud of recently.

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ahhh... :(

sad life i have. grrrr... sitting here wanting to finish my work but cnt concentrate. not only that, when have the work load ever stopped? haiya. TSKKK!!!!

ytd we went for our FYP evaluation and omg the evaluators gave us quite negative comments. T_T for a moment im like so de-motivated and feel like giving up. there are still so many many things to do.

this sem is extremely busy, i guess its because of FYP, 2D assignment and also the rush on PD. suckers! this due dates all all round the corner.

i always told myself i want to do well, den the determination and motivation goes down the slope.

omg i need to find myself a new motivation. other things, i can dont bother to think about it cos i dont even know if it will happen or not. *angry inside* :(

ytd val have been telling me no wonder i cnt finish my work, and i think abt it, yeah.. makes sense.

they make me realise that i am not that kind of person that can sit down and do my work. even if so, i can last for long i will fidget around, make noise sing song. den ltr tired, duwan to do alrdy. no wonder i always cnt finish my work, even simple things also take very long.

omg this is a very bad habit i have to kick away!!!! ok bye i want to go do my work alrdy.

some one from above please protect me all the way!

recent night photoshoot with GW. omg look at the bad quality. thanks to my tripod! if i have money i want to get one alrdy. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. byebye.

FUCK FUCK FUCK! yes this is my mood now. i was doing my banner and side traced a little, i went to FB and was browsing through my brothers accounts. and it brought me tears. i have no idea why is this so, but the more i browse, i start tearing already.

seriously im not jealous of them but when in the hell they are living their life so easily and here i am stucked with all the assignments, PD, FYP, no money, no mood and got so stress over little things like this.

now tell me is it my attitude to my life is wrong. i have no fucking idea what am i doing. last time when i was working, i have this kind of mood, no studying i also have this kind of mood. i should just go bang the wall and crush myself and eventually die.

srsly things are not gg easy for me. NOTHING IS GOING EASY FOR ME. and nobody knows... i really hate myself for behaving this way. i seriously got no idea. im just thinking if i have lots of money, i should go spend and spend and spend. but apparently, i dont have money to spend lah WTF. stucked at home everyday feeling so moody. i really need to change the way how i control myself.

its no big deal right? why must i treat it like if i dont clear the misunderstanding i am going to die the next moment. but if i die, wouldnt that be good?

then all those that are angry with me and hate talking to me u all can have a peace of your mind. no one is gg to irritate u all, the irritant of your life is DEAD. FUCK!

nothing is enjoyable. nothing is fun. everything is about anger and no self control. yes thats me. fuck off now.