seriously im not jealous of them but when in the hell they are living their life so easily and here i am stucked with all the assignments, PD, FYP, no money, no mood and got so stress over little things like this.
now tell me is it my attitude to my life is wrong. i have no fucking idea what am i doing. last time when i was working, i have this kind of mood, no studying i also have this kind of mood. i should just go bang the wall and crush myself and eventually die.
srsly things are not gg easy for me. NOTHING IS GOING EASY FOR ME. and nobody knows... i really hate myself for behaving this way. i seriously got no idea. im just thinking if i have lots of money, i should go spend and spend and spend. but apparently, i dont have money to spend lah WTF. stucked at home everyday feeling so moody. i really need to change the way how i control myself.
its no big deal right? why must i treat it like if i dont clear the misunderstanding i am going to die the next moment. but if i die, wouldnt that be good?
then all those that are angry with me and hate talking to me u all can have a peace of your mind. no one is gg to irritate u all, the irritant of your life is DEAD. FUCK!
nothing is enjoyable. nothing is fun. everything is about anger and no self control. yes thats me. fuck off now.
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