boredsianlonelyalone new years' eve!!
stuck-ed at home. omg. this year just sucks man!

*christmas alone, new years' eve alone!
ltr mum and uncle still want to go watch fireworks sia. think i duwan to follow lor!
SIAN!

there's so many things i want to do, working everyday during the holidays,
but im spending like a BOMB!
HAI!!!! and im throwing tantrums very easily! wads the fucking problem with me man!
think im getting some mental disorder, i cnt control my feelings! awhile u see me frowning, awhile u see me laughing. _|_ FML!
and i feel it, im feeling irritated again!
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tmr gg to kbox with zhenlin and xueyi, will all our mums. i hope that it is a happy outing lah, for one day, don't be pissed off.
saturday clubbing, LOL. my 1st time. hehehehe!

btw, kords came back from Taiwan alrdy... i lend him my camera and of course the charger. but the charger lost leh, but i rmb putting it in his bag. den he nvr lock his bag lor! now he go buy liao lah. hope can get it, cos i go look from ebay nvr sell leh. hais. hope will not too expensive lor. waste his money.
dunoe is it the airport open the zip and steal lor, cos is put at the side of the bag mah... humph!

ahhh.... have not been blogging! sleeping is my life man, im considering whether to work when sch starts, as in year 2. ???

recently really not enough money to use lor, tsk! WAD IS HAPENING TO ME?! i cnt control spending money all that. TSK!

suddenly, i dun feel like blogging anymore.........................................................

SUX

yes, MIA-ed. should not say like that, should just say i sleep like a pig.
Everyday, after work, i will come home to have lunch and sleep, all the way to 10+, or even the latest, 12 midnight to shower. very horrible, and den i will asleep again.
and sleep for around 2-3hrs, wake up, damn tired again. this is my cycle of my no-life holidays.
actually wanted to study for math. forget it man. god damn it. i slept and slept and slept.

there is also one time, i on my laptop, i waiting for it to connect to the VPN, den i fall asleep lor, until wake up, batt flat liao lah. mum says nbdy sleeps like me. LOL. i realised i sleep way too much.

but i did something conductive lah. i baked! =D
the taste is ok, but the it is so not presentable. omg, and i keep throwing away those those f.ugly ones. wasted. but the 2nd attempt was much better, though still look abit not presentable.
and yes, with the help and mess from SeeYing.

*1st baking, looks ok right, but the butter starts to MELT! OMG!

*while waiting, we eat Lays and drink Coke. and attracting the dogs. HOHO!

*as it continues to melt,,,,,,

*look!! omg. this is our cookie, inside is hot air!!

*cooked alrdy, use the fork and spoon to compress it, although it looks ugly, but this is the most presentable one!

*last one, tot it will be good, but end up throwing both two trays away!

the 1st time baking, the kitchen is in a mess! everything is everywhere, it's HORRIBLE. but the 2nd time i baked, not so messy, although abit rush, but the cookie still doesn't look good. this is Chocolate Chips cookie, im gg to bake oatmeal cookie!

had Family christmas gathering on sunday, although abit tired, but still fun, played and laugh like mad. also, wrap presents like mad too! my uncle got lots of pressies, and im supposed to helpe him when the other 2 cousins gave up. i wrapped 10. WOOT!

and i have not decided whether to perm my hair or rebond my hair lor! i noe rebound alrdy confirm flat ttm one. den i scare perm right, the hairdresser din perm to the style i want. if not i look too old.
today mum just say me. decide alrdy faster go do, don't change and change and change!
善变的女人！

*should i go jogging? i feel sleepy alrdy.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.
oh my, where are my friends? how do you maintain a friendship?
does friendship means always initiating? but am i initiating at all?? mind full of bad thoughts.
omg. im tired. but at least, i miss all of you! =)


this few days holidays tired ttm. my bio clock all so wrong. so hard to stay awake during work time.
everyday, after work, come back sleep all the way until 9+ or around 10 den wake up bath.
den at night cnt sleep, ard 1am den sleep. den 3am wake up again. >:(

and i always wanted to bake since ytd. but ytd got no ingredients, so today, at least make the effort to buy. wanted to bake honey chicken and cookies.
bought the chicken, forget the honey.
bought the flour, forget the baking soda.
end up both also cannot bake. DAMN.

damn. i just gone case ttm. wanted to wake up to buy the things at NTUC, i slept thru again. i just had my shower. omg. wad is happening to me man.

*bad stomach. i eat like normal, but i shit like an ANT. damn.
SUAY. want to upload pics but cnt. hehe.

OOOHH. tmr kords is officially ORD liao. so good right. damn. den i see him everyday at home i cnt tahan one lor, always do nth, play computer. HUMPH!

but very happy also, finally, GROW UP liao ah kords. haehaehae!! this time ORD no ceremony for him, so sad, only that time got the passing up parade. now his barang barang all at home. MESSY!!!

*kords at Tekong de passing out parade.

*tt was 2 years ago!!

*see mum, touched to see his son grow up lah! HAHA!

*this is kords at seletat one. i noe where he is ok liao.
HOHO!


tmr's work. but i cant sleep. just now was helping Huatts apply his bursary award. than need mum and dad's divorce statement.
and i accidentally read the contents of it, why mum wants to divorce dad. im really feeling devastated. it's just a shocking news to me.
i should cherish mum more, for all the pain and fear, the humiliation from dad, that she has suffered.

i regret being a childish 18 years old, still throwing tantrums over little things, being pissed off over tiny little matter.
it's time to do some self-reflection, over the 18 years. what i tot was all wrong, my assumptions were all wrong, it wasn't like that.... IM SORRY MUM.

i should really cherish mum more than i do now. but it does not mean that i will hate dad for all the things that he have done, what done cnt be undone.
what can you do to replace the hurt that you have done?
but i hope that dad will realise his mistakes, i also feel sorry for dad. but what can i do? how do i solve this family matter??!?!!!!!

im just thankful that mum is strong to overcome all this. if not, what will have happened to the 3 childrens?
help. im drowning upon knowing all this. i should not have continued reading the contents.

SATURDAY NIGHT

argh. im so tired. my hands are aching, but i believe, there is more to come, because i will be working at mum's for the rest of the 3 weeks. i noe it'll be tiring, but i now i'll be happy there. =DD

YEAH. money money come to me. ($,$)

there is so many things that i want, but there is so little NO money for me to spend. i need to work and save. and revise hard for my math. missed UT1, daily grades sux ttm. UT2 must be good and daily grade better. promised to revise at least 1 problem a day.

hope not that kind say only, no actions one.

had MOS Burger for dinner. it huatts bring back one, LinYi buy for us to eat. so nice. haehae!!~ and she;s bringing me to Taiwan next year. but actually the purpose to go there is to study for a course, facial course, den because of her sales very high, she got 3 tickets, and she bringing me along!~ YAY!
although the course is 2 days, but at least still got 4-5 days shopping de lah. so now must save money, don't anyhow buy things liao lor.

凯玲，加油加油！！

ooh ohh oooooooooohhhhhh!
BOOMXZXZXZXZXZXZX!!!! hahaha!

today just kill brain cells ttm manxz!
morning need to do HTML codes. DAMN! always when i edit my blog codes will headache lah. really headache lah. ZZZ. no time for lunch, thanks BiQin and Nicole help me buy chicken rice. HAHAHA!

cnt complete in time also, also got alot of careless. ZZZ. but lucky managed to finish all on time, let faci check. =)

den got marketing UT. walao. i start the 1st question i just dunoe how to do, my brain cells all die liao. just anyhow type type type. den ltr realise wrong wrong wrong, edit edit. ZZZ.

and YAY! holidays alrdy. monday not gg to school, just anth self-declared leave. =/
and im gg to start my no life days. for 3 weeks. hahaha!! =DD

and and and!! OMFG!!! I MISSED THE handsome driver's bus today!! =(
i abit late only, i reaching the bustop and see the bus drive off. HAHA! damn. abit disappointed lor. must wait until holidays finish den can see the driver liao. i think by that time the craziness just over liao lor. hhaha! hope so, if not i everyday just want to take his bus and late for school lah. HAHA!

HAHA! supposed to be very happy today!! =))
today late for sch for a few minutes, but this faci always got grace de.
i took the 7.40 bus. i saw the cute driver!!! OMG!
HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! damn high one. even ppl bang until me step until my leg i also ok one. steady ah. HAHAHA!! want to go late tmr. =))
tmr see the last day den holiday liao mah. HOHOHOHO!
abit 发花痴 ahhhhh, HAHAHA!!
and im going GAGA!!! =DDDDDDDDDDD


rch class, marketing marketing. OMG!
tmr is marketing UT sumore. haiyer.
monday not going to sch, self claimed leave. AHAHAHA!
tt means tmr last day lah!
abit pissed off in class also, but in the end still happy. start with a BANANA! omg* no childhood. HAHAHA!


and yes, ytd i baked. sheperd's pie. doesn't taste good and doesn't look good, damn. FAIL!

*this is how it looks after baking.

*omg, it just does not look good to me.

*buddy is always giving the sleepy face.

*Nack is always giving the pissed off face.

*miss them? hehehehe!

*nice not. got one day cnt sleep draw one. not bad right. HAEHAE!~

damn. today mood is just from good to foul one lorxzxzxzxz!!!

today in class very happy you know! i completed the worksheet. i'm so damn PROUD! haha! so fulfilling!~ i want to use this kind of determination to revise for my math UT2. =)

den i try alot of questions, some can so, some cannot do. until lesson finish my hair like SIAO CHAR BO. tmd. but no headache leh. surprised. HAHAHA!!

*never forget to take pictures. WOAHAHAH! so happy, faci today also happy. whole class is so noisy!!
and thank you BiQin, treat me eat ice cream! woahahha!




all the way until JE interchange, i always suay ttm de lor. always will see the bus drive off in-front of me one lor! FUCK!
and today i missed the cute driver's bus!! >:O
how to arrive on time for the bus leh!? walao!! i just hate that feeling lor.......................

IM BACK! haha, jus had my late dinner. and im too full to sleep. damn. turning into a big fat PIG!!!
ZZZ.
jus now went to JP to buy microwave oven and mouse. finally! I got a mouse to use... and i bought half a microwave oven. share share the cost with GSY. haha!

yeah! im so happy today, and making way too much noise in class. LOL. team discussion becomes chit chatting. HAHA! faci also ask us, are you all discussing or are you all chit chatting. AHAHAHA!

and yes, im broke. with $10 in my bank and $20 in my wallet. aint i GREAT?! seriously need to save up. i just got this very bad habit, whenever i got money, i want to spend it. damn.
i want to work, i need to work. should i go work at Taiwan restaurant 鼎泰豐as waitress leh? or go to help mum leh??

hmm hmm hmm, la la la la la!!~~

sunday is so BORING!!! morning went to the market with mum, came back, went for breakfast with dad. come back sleep~ wake up eat dinner and its now!~ ZZZ, boring, non constructive day. SIAN!

i want to buy microwave oven. i want to bake things. hehehe. but alone go buy like PAISEH ONLY!! damn. nbdy want to go with me lor. SIAN. humph!

now watching TV, remember to donate ok!! =))
and and and! today morning Kords went to run the marathon. woo. is leg is pain now. i see he baika i so happy. hahaha! LOL.

actually got nothing to post today, but i just want to post. why not i just upload some overdue pictures:

HAIII!!
had a convo with Pris in the afternn. told her why i feel so bad. Thanks yeah! =))

2nd post of the day. im tired. tmr i friday. then saturday. i must chin up. if not saturday i also not in the mood to work. but i must work, die die need to go to work. =/

just now went to BBDC for my FTT. guess what is my result??
yes. i nvr take and came back. WHY???!!
because the day that i book is yesterday de.!



look at the picture. sian. i think i see wrong is the highlighted one. i just see a 3 there, i tot i taking the test on the 3rd. sian. today i booked again. is next month's 7th. SIAN!

must remember, 7th. 6.45!

ah. this is bored lor. im hungry. but im not in the mood to eat. i feel like partial-ing, but i don't know how to tell mum later. i don't even know what is it that i want now. somebody just enlighten me.

im late for school today. i woke up at 7. damn. and i continued to sleep until 7.20 den i wake up and prepare. actually im feeling ok when coming to school.
but when i reached school, i just instant SIAN. i duwan to talk. ask me a few more times i get pissed off. what is the reason???
HAIIIIIIII!!!!!!!

and my classmate is just emo ttm again.
me feeling irritated inside too. how should i handle this kind of situation?
now is break time but i have got no friends around me. what day is today. SIAN.
should i even let this kind of situation affect me? i feel so useless today. _|_

just bloody tell me, what should i do?!?! i think im going crazy if this continues.
SICK SICK SICK!!!!
its not physically sick, is psychologically sick...

I JUST GOT NO MOOD!!!!

凯玲，加油！不可以为了一点小事情影响你。其实这些事情只是个开始。
你不可以放弃，你还有妈妈，爸爸支持你。
你还有很多事情还没有作完。
打起精神，咬紧牙关，你是做得到的。

alright, i feel so much better alrdy. i know i have to be strong. i realise i have to be strong. =)

looking at the class today, focusing my eyesight on the person that i chatted happily with yesterday.
what's wrong with him today? he looks sad.

is today a good day? there is one W46P, but there seemed to be two today.
one being the always noisy and dramatic bunch of people.
and
one being the sad and emotional friends.

im really surprised seeing how emotional they are. im very worried about them. i want to ask them what happen, but im scared. how do you concern a friend that is feeling low. how do you concern about them? because seeing them behaving like this, i feel that everything is so wrong...

my friends, be strong. i hope those smiles will come back on your faces soon.
yesterday was a good day and today is not. but,
tomorrow will be better,
tomorrow CAN be better.

be strong for those that care for you,
be strong for those that love you.
never let little things affect you,
it affects the people around you.
although i don't know how to show my concern towards you,
but deep inside i do.
cheer up my friends,
i am behind you.
and im glad we are friends.

ps. CHEER UPs. =)

YAY! today my blog counters hit 100!!! thank you everybody for supporting! WOOHOOO!!

today is math lesson. confirm cui ttm. my math alrdy CMI liao. now still come wad A-math. just kill me man. was kidding saying i 一窍不通. den 一窍 got the same pronunciation as 一敲，means knock once. den jeff kidding say 'den knock twice lor'. i reply my team mates, just knock me a few more times until i faint lah, 3.30 den wake up. HAHA. math is just not my cup of tea, if not O'levels need to take 3 times meh. tmd.

today confirm sidetrack ttm. damn it. watch MV, take pictures, tag photos. aiyo. even when faci de 6P also dunoe how many people listen only, but confirm not me, cos i is play until...

today rongrong teach me new word. LB. haha
sentence：study until like this, i want to LB liao lah.
LB means long bia. =.=" bang the wall.
i learn very fast right. HAHA!


*pictures pictures, before presentation, after presentation and during presentation. this is damn hardcore! HAHA! still got some more at FB.*




*got see or not?! tha painter like kiss me liddat. HAHA! but if got handsome like Jang Guen Suk i don't mind. HAEHAE! 发花痴 again. hoho!*

*me and nicole. take alot, but she delete all. left one only.*

and yes. Nicole vandalized my hand! OMG. look at the cute twin mole of mine! HAHA! everyday got people draw lor. BiQin and Nicole. one my one. but this Nicole draw one so BIG and it's a PIG. walao. still double eyelid it for me and long lashes.

btw, Lee Min Ho is coming to Singapore leh... 21st December at Expo. i wanna go.
WHO WANNA GO WITH ME??? check it out here:
SISTIC

I AM VERY HAPPY TODAY!! =))
*CAN YOU FEEL MY HEARTBEAT?* HAHAHA!!

alright, here is how i endure my non-constructive weekend.
saturday after work, just come back sleep ttm man. haha. about 11 den wake up find food.
eat alrdy, watch "You're Beautiful" but still haven watch finish lah, can't bear to finish it. still got 2 more eps. im not gg to watch it today!!

sunday, had lunch with dad. and the whole afternn i just in youtube watch videos and MVs. and copied down some lyrics. just take my whole afternn away. HAHA. tired, but i enjoyed it. YAY! =)

and mum made some tapioca kuay. YUMYUM. see how Nack and Buddy is interested.
OMG* you two greedy DOGS!

*look at the way he stand. just cute ttm lah*


*look at buddy~* hehe!

*camwhored with Nack*

*so unwilling, humph!*

*finally manxzxzxzxz!!!*

*watching 当我们同在一起* and i go open the dried mangoes to eat that i buy from thailand.

*very disgusting lor. not nice.............

*humph! NOT NICE!

and i threw the whole damn packet away!!~~

and,

i opened the seaweed, TAO KAE NEO, also buy from thailand. wasabi flavoured

*open open* *pose pose*

*and i bloody ate it*



*HOT! MY LIPS PAIN!! zip it back. damn.
any snacks for me?? my mouth very itchy..

today post cute or not? HAHA! LOL. jus feel like taking pictures lor, den post. hae hae!
i love my blog. maybe, tmr i will change my wishlist all i guess? hmm. different things i want. HAHA.

oh yeah. today communication abit diao lor. need to interview people to get information. haha!
*huackernaenae* has become my trademark! WAHAHA!!

eew. i wanted to upload the video. but very slow. forget it.

YAY! im so happy today~
i bring Nack go down walk walk or about 2hrs. LOL. and i got two blisters on my feet. walao. if another hour means another blister? actually i wanted to take pictures, but he look damn asthmatic. when gg to reach home, he just lie down at HKSS de gate there. he give up. he is tired. HAHA.

then showered him. OMG, i just love him ttm manxz! haehae.!~

then my turn to shower, and off to ah ma hse. had a simple family gathering? no lah, just random gathering, ate steamboat and i ate alot!! guilty now. HAHA! but tmr gg over again. YAY! cos we wanna watch midnight?

what is the feeling of being drunk? just now i drank 2 cups of Anchor beer, 1 cup of dry GENE*dunoe how to spell* and a few cups of Vodca Raspberry. but all got mix lah. is it too diluted? omgm i cnt wait to go clubbing man!

ok, i really got to sleep now. tmr got work. HAEHAE! im happy! =)

hey hey! slept enough lo... reached home about 1.40pm. before that went to BBDC to apply for my PDL! WOHOOO~ cannot wait to drive man. but wait till i got abit of money 1st.

just bought a packet of dog food. dunoe how much. 70+? or 80+? i dunoe. but im currently BROKE. humph! i really wanna work MANXZXZ! i still have got to pay my school fees. how?? hai!!!

nvm..... today mum come back, den she saw me sleeping. she say eh kai ling, so early ah, got sch? den i say EEMMM. haha! den she went to rest liao. just now den i tell her the truth. hehehe. if not i will guilty for life de man!! haha! den she say, want to study study properly HUH! LOL.

*should i go out to work?

haiya. SIAN! im gg to partial today. very sian with this faci. although i feel guily, but i just don't feel like staying. and im thinking how to explain to mum later...


*outdated pictures. nth better to do.


pictures i took this morning. actually feeling very refreshed and all perked up, can't wait to end lesson, cos tmr holiday. but i see the faci come in, i straight away, OMG! IM GG TO PARTIAL!

share with you all some pictures of the lovely doggies of mine!~

white shirt, white dog. =)



doggies say BYEBYE!

lol buddy. thanking for seating on my laptop. you are not supposed to be there!!