=(( dunoe what happen to me, after work, come home and cry. some things are running thru my mind on the way back, but who can i tell?? hai!!
why cant i just be stronger? why did i let my tears fall?!

sometimes, i really just dun feel like working, but i have to, just to be filial, but when im the only one being filial, is it enough? or what they do is not enough? i dunoe, sometimes i just hate being treated this way, but i don't know how to reject it. and she takes it for granted. srsly, what should i do?

i dunoe what can i do to pull myself out of this shit things, i want to be treated nicely too, but who will, people like to say me fat. come on lah, what's the purpose, i really hate it. but how should i show it? people likes to ask me to do things, but please, there is limits ok!!! _|_

i really dunoe what i should do now, continue wearing the fake laughing and smiling mask?! and continue to show that im ignorant about all things?
i want to hide and lock myself in my room and cry, and think. when the tears dried up,
Neo Kai Ling is a changed person.
i want i want, but i got no courage. FML! _|_

dinner later with family, charger not here yet, thank seeying for lending me yours.
gg to cut my hair later, should i cut it short?
srsly, today my day is black and blue.

hoho!! today is nvr go school de loh! haha, went to help mum work, bcos Kords ytd go his friend b'dae party den he needs rest. =.="
today Aunt, WeiQi and WenQi take bus come canteen find us leh! LOL. so hardworking, take bus, if it me, i rather early in the morning go with mum rather than take bus lor. EEE. haha!!

ytd, was FUN x1000000000!!!
went to cineleisure for Kbox, Kpool, neoprints and KFC. wahaha. but 1 thing is never buy until my glitter nail polish. =(
nvm, maybe this sun after SHINee i go buy lor. hehehe!! *excited again! =DD


*BiQin, XinYi, Michaela, KaiLing, Alviss, Eric

posting only the neoprints pictures, bcos i don't have the photos, i lazy to download, hahaha!
and nvr take pictures lor, bcos i dun have CAMERA!!
Kords buy the charger alrdy, and he say got the despatch mail liao. hope tmr or saturday morning the postal and reach man, i want to charge my camera and use it for family dinner this saturday, SHINee fan signing session on sunday and concert on monday!!!

tmr also dun feel like gg to school leh, i tell mum already, if she ltr got wake me up den i go canteen, if she ask me i got go or not i also follow her go canteen, if she nvr wake me up, too bad, go to SCHOOL!

really super long since i blogged. sorry ah, i also dunoe what i doing at home. i nvr take naps recently alrdy, but my time just runs so quickly!
recently, i also went for jogging, keep FIT! HAHA! =)

alright, some things to share, friday was formal wear day. =(
did not wear formal and the heels made my both ankle suffering from BLISTERS! omg, i hate blisters.

*Right foot

*left foot

looks fresh right. haha. painful man. actually i got plaster from BiQin and Micahela alrdy, Biqin one i put alrdy, walk walk it came off. den Micahela give me one is Tweety Bird one! omg. i rather my feet suffer. haha! so cute sticker. =|
in the shower that day, im like jumping and shouting. but no choice, need to bath, and lazy to go down buy plaster. haha. serves me right.!

pictures, but it seemed like half the class only, but again its those that wear formal actually.
those that not in formal either left alrdy, or never come..








oh yeah. SHINee is coming for fan signing session! damn excited. woohoo!
and so, i dreamt i saw Onew and Taemin. i shook Taemin's hand. haha. shy shy! =* LOL!
i got the tickets to the concert and i buy teens with them at the cover page. =DD!!!


and the tickets for the Oh JoonSung Drama concert, featuring SHINee!!

* brochure




*math dunoe how to do? take pictures :) [monday]


this book is the highlight of the day. haha, bcos of this book, i waited for Rong at JE interchange. LOL. and was late. but as usual lor. hehehehe :)


and my mood now is super happy! YAY! tmr self declared leave! gg to Kbox to sing and eat. ahha! with classmates some more, imagine how is the class tmr. HAHA.

alright, im now at aunts facial office. GRRR.
i went to Din Tai Feng just now alrdy. but i dun dare to go in leh.
hai!!! im thinking whether to go work or not leh. =((

i tot the interview time is from 12 to 2, den 4 to 6. but i rmb wrong! HA! lucky did not go in, but i also don't dare to go in.
just now i checked, is from 2 to 6. haha.

think today is just suay day lah.
morning take the wrong bus, 99 see until 98. den alight at the library there, walk like dog liddat lor. DAMN!!!
den wrong timing for interview.
im considering whether to go or not now. =((

ok, im in math lesson now. anth day is wasted for me. laugh laugh laugh.
dunoe how to solve the PS today. damn, think im gg to get anth D today. saying about grades, my daily grades last week is OMFG BAD! i got 1 F, 1 D and 2C. one more not out yet. omg. shit lor. srlsy need to buck up for school work.

sat me and tiffancy went to bugis to buy tickets for the concert got SHINee one=)) YAY! and mum's ticket for the AH MEI one. but i forget to bring my money. LOL! bcome i ytd go JP buy. i got the tickets alrdy. HAHA!!!!

and yes, mum tied my hair on saturday, so nice, i feel so pretty the whole day!! =DD love it TTM MAN! it's super long ever since mum tied my hair. HAHA! miss the feeling, although there is only one picture, but is very nice!

*french braid


then ytd at JP also went to look for my formal wear, didn't see anth i like. =( think im just gg to wear the dress. this dress ok right??


aiya, math lesson now. 2nd group presenting, ltr i still need to go and submit the appeal letter, i hvn send yet!!! leaving early, not listening, not gonna present. my grades today will be F***ed. damn.

hehehe. happy lah can.
actually today is want to go submit the appeal letter, but when i rch JE alrdy 4.3o. close liao lor.
so i take 334 home, thinking can see the driver. but too early liao lah! =.=" my bus is like so empty, so shiok, i sit down, blast my music and stare blankly into space. woohoo!! i like i like!! (Y)(Y)
but i nearly missed my stop. goodness! faster get down, so embarrassing!

rch the block, mum sitting downstairs, dunoe for wad. wait kords i think. den chit chat she say she hungry, we went to coffee shop eat. haha! den i miao-ing 334. finally i saw the driver! HHAHA!!
inside UHM QIO lah! damn happy one. den my mum kpo, want to see what i looking at, haha!

but on the way back, the 334 stop at the junction there, after the loop, my own bustop, i ask mum to see, she so excited also! walao. den got one lorry pass, blocked her view! HAHA!
i tell her, is just for me to see de lah! HAHAHA!!

btw, tiffancy say her mum allow her to go for the SHINee concert lor! im like gg to buy the tickets at bugis aft work later! WAHAHA!!! =)) \m/\m/\m/

ok lah, gg to sleep liao , if not ltr 3.3o cnt wake up! woohoo!!

my handsome driver!~
SHINee!! hahahaha!!! SHUANG LAH!

uh uh. me leg now sibei pain. drag me go where i also will not go one.!!
and yes, just now help dad write the summon appeal letter, gg to submit tmr!! anyway, the pen poked into my hand lor. the ink is under the skin! i have to cut the skin away! but the ink is still stucked inside. DAMN.

today is C111. darn, new faci. and his new presenting methods, one slide not more than 5 words?!
i got the 1st slide, screwed it up. HAHA! LOL. luckily managed to explain the other slides. =|

anyway, i have 2 good news! YAY!
TT is back, in the previous post i was still mentioning about him, the next day, he called=)
his gg to come back to tch huatts.

and and and!!
i saw the cute bus driver today lah!! woa! sibei happy lor at the bus interchange!!
=.=" ahahaha! bcos v long nvr see liao, last time holiday on the road still got see 1 or 2 times, den start of sch until now nvr see leh, until today. think he change shift liao lah, but i still saw him today! WOHOOO!!


suddenly i realised, my right hand have so many injuries. haha! so difficult to be my hand, not bang until, then got cut until, if not got scald until. pattern alot ah!

btw, was very excited to go for the concert that have SHINee inside. but Tiffancy mum dun allow her to go leh. hais. den nbdy go with me liao lor.
good luck to her tmr ask again, hope Saturday go buy tickets is a success yeah! =))

back to blog.
ytd is MONDAY math. math really makes me mad. i skipped P11, and den i dunoe how to do P12 totally, AT ALL! it shall be my own effort to brush up my math myself.
webcamed in class with Nicole, BiQin and Jason.




then off to bugis with Gillian and Shirley. super tiring, cos we are finding places to take our photo. HAHA! so cheapo lor, haha! but in the end, went to cafe to sit down.
suddenly i rmb! gillian keep saying she full after she eat her bimbimbab. then she eat donut again at the cafe! ahahahaha!! den i drink chocomint, abit ex, but nvm, nice.


and im seriously amazed that we took 100+ photos that day!
so add up tgt, i took about 200 photos that day, combine with those in class lah! haha!
tt's MAD!
and its the combination of happy-ness, crazy-ness and laughter. i love 11January2010