aiyo... friday le. today am very pissed off. sian.
nvm. it is finally over.

tmr gg to work loh... still rmb last sat went to see Lee Min Ho. Woot! hahahaha!!!!
want to go somewhere leh...
haiyo. but exams not over yet. actually it is only 9 papers over 7 days. but drag for 2 weeks. haiya.! sian. the more exams come, the more i wanna go out.
this always happen when it is exam period.

梁凯玲，加油啦！

for my math module, faci give me the comments i very touched. i promise to work hard!!!
thanks faci!! i am motivated to do well. =)
-You have a potential in math so don't give up even if you don't understand the problem or way to do it as it will came to you in the end.[Jeff]
-I hope that you will continue being friendly and be the one that joins the team together. [Ridhwan]
-See that your team-mates are supportive of you. Nobody is able to influence you in a negative way unless you allow the negative spirit to come in. Therefore, instead of passively avoiding negative influences, why not actively create positive attitude of learning that comes from within you, and the good thing is that this process of creation is totally within your control?[Faci]

hais! math ah math.. finally i can forgo math.... but i still hope next tym got chance to coontinue doing math.
today math paper is ok?? easy? difficult?? all i can say, don't hold too high hopes..
期望越高，失望越大。
dunoe why suddenly so emo liao... i should be happy right???! but no, im not... dunoe why also.

today math P2. really need to write alot. section A got 10 qns. section B two questions but do one. for the whole 2h30mins im writing and writing. writing and writing. until i get to the 9th question, i want to draw a small diagram, my hand is trembling until... cnt straight and v light. good.
but im proud of myself. i tried my best, although i did not study. not trying to be HAO LIAN lah. maybe is this is the last paper for this syllabus, and it is gg into history, tt's why is not so though.

finally, can loosen up abit alrdy. left sci and UT and FTT. give myself a pat on the shoulder and shout: KAI LING 加油！YOU CAN DO IT!!

it's gg to end soon!!!
02/11 - Science/chemistry(2.00pm)
03/11 - UT: Cognetive(4.00pm)
03/11 - FTT(8.00pm)
04/11 - Science/physics(8.00am)
05/11 - UT: Marketing(4.30pm)
11/11 - Science (MCQ)(2.00pm)
11/11 - UT: Web & New media communication(4.00pm)
13/11 - UT: Math(4.00pm)
16/11 - UT: Communication practice(4.00pm)

7 day, 9 papers!!! jiayou jiayou!!!
*no feeling..*

hey hey! so how is the blog with new stuffs? -Plurk and new playlist?
woohoo! damn happy. i like my blog so much now!!!!!

just now my math ppr did not finish the last question. in all i confirm guarantee + chop gg to lose 17 marks. this 17 marks is included anyhow whack de and the last qn. hope the rest still ok.
P1 is ok. means P2 will be difficult? tmr tmr...

the paper is tmr and i now still here change blog de template and enjoying myself, watch video.
tsk. lucky today not hard le. really, must go sleep le.!! =))

good night peepos!!

haiya x1000000000000000000000000000!! influenced by BiQin liao. she before rch toilet haiya. inside cubicle haiya. come out wash hand also say haiya. hahaha! win liao.
today is math module... v headache. actually working very closely using the worksheet le. but still did not managed to get the final answer. for four weeks, no answer. that is very bad! gotta buck up buck up!! jiayou lor...

today in class Skype with CK cousin. haha! he ask me use my blog sell fish ball mee. haha! he also like to eat fishball ah! to CK cousin:　杨家的种啊！although he is in japan, really hope that he will come back to visit us. or even go back to m'sia to celebrate CNY. anyway, next year de CNY gg back m'sia celebrate. really is cannot wait!! =))

tmr is my math ppr le.. i haven do any revision. i should just go LANG PIA lah. or just jump down the building. but i promise to work hard! tonight.
actually wanna do revision this afternn de. but i sleep like a PIG liddat. i see Nack sleep i also tired. but actually i is tired de lah. ytd watch video until 2am, today also wake up late. luckily rch sch still early. but this aftnn nap i really dream alot. and when i wake up, i feel very heavy. stress...!!
but 加油啦！很快就过去了！saturday i was still telling mum, after all my UTs and o'levels, 我的头发都白了啦！　

saturday me and that sambat Tiffancy go see Lee Min Ho lah!! damn squeezy. than the event cancel. really v disappointed. but bo bian. hope next time still got chance lor. den we went to eat Mos burger, i treat her to nuggets and fries. damn full until wanna vomit. den actually wanna head home, cos i quite tired alrdy, morn work, go home jiu chiong out. haha. for the sake of Lee Min Ho.. =) i tell mum i v tired. she say 哎呀，开心就好。
BUT, we never go back. she want to go to far east look at her prom stuffs. and her theme is Masquerade. DAMN COOL CAN. wear mask de leh. haha! not like ours, wat black and white. waste time.
so both of us walked from PS all the way to Far east. good lah she. but i also good. i walked. =)
she bought accessories and i bought a shoe, 2 hairband and 3 bracelets, 1 for her. woa. damn happy lor. and i secretly never take mum de work pay. she really is very 辛苦啦。
妈妈，我伟大的妈妈，我爱你！！　＝））

ok and the dumbest think is, we never take pictures! hahaha! *clap lah*!!
sry for this long and dumb post. i find some pics see have or not.
to the people i miss!! =))


*me and mum @NDP preview, see she so happy! haha!

*W15D outing. lol. see they so happy! but actually MAD is a better word. haha!


the SAMBATXZXZXZXZ! LOVES LAH!
and MISSES! *winks!

*awesome THREESOME 　　　　　　　　　　　　

*感受到有姐姐的温暖了吧？

*this pic of Kords is nothe giv me take one, is i take from the board from his army camp.

alright. today is my o'level science practical. did not study @ all. CLAP***
ytd night i told myself, wake up earlier tmr to study. today morn i told myself, 5 mins more.
and when i saw the entry proof, it stated exam starts @ 2.00 and i went back to sleep AGAIN. thinking i can study in the school since i'm supposed to reach at 12.30. packed my bag, realised no ruler, no pen. luckily i checked. and i want to buy the U-weekly and Teenage. Lee Min Ho is featured!!! =))

today practical is like crap. damn. chemistry part is still ok, until the last part, the question is what anion can be found in Salt X? and what anion can be found in solution Y. 1 is carbonate, the other is sulphate. i dunoe i go put, ammonia carbonate and copper (II) sulphate correct or not. SHIT. should not go put de lor. cos in that solution actually is dont have the copper, but ammonia maybe have, cos turn red litmus paper blue. omg. just god bless me man.

and i have been damn procrastinating like nbdy's fucking business. damn disappointed in myself. REALLY DID NOT DO ANY REVISION AT ALL! shit. in deep deep SHIT.
here is my hectic schedule all the way until UT ends.

22/10 - practical(12.30pm) (ended)
27/10 - math ppr 1(2.30pm)
28/10 - math ppr 2(2.30pm)
02/11 - Science/chemistry(2.00pm)
03/11 - UT: Cognetive(4.00pm)
03/11 - FTT(8.00pm)
04/11 - Science/physics(8.00am)
05/11 - UT: Marketing(4.30pm)
11/11 - Science (MCQ)(2.00pm)
11/11 - UT: Web & New media communication(4.00pm)
13/11 - UT: Math(4.00pm)
16/11 - UT: Communication practice(4.00pm)

hope this time not so blurr to see wrong timing to miss ANY EXAM DATES! omg. jus fill me with more motivation and preserverence!!
*see alrdy also tired* HAI!!!!

ok, this is the second post for the day. today the math is like SHAG! omg.! sian lah. confirm anth C de lah. CRAP!
just now also went to IT-helpdesk to make the WPG. hvn make ok yet, must come back scan and see got any virus or not...

btw, Lee Min Ho is coming to Singapore this Sat. 3.30-4.30 at ION orchard de Etude House. i is very wanna go de lor.. but sure pack like mad de lah. plus got work this Sat. hais. how? 心痒痒LAH!
and now they also got this scratch card. 1 piece is hell $15. but if got the kitten inside can get free entry to St James for party. that one is heng until lao sai den can get one lor. SIAN. somebody help me make the decision please!!!

ok, feeling stressed now. thurs is practical alrdy. damn fast. time really past DAMN FAST. but i just hope everything can just be over and dealt with lah. sian x100000000000!!!!

omg... im having super headache. this vector is like!!! i dunoe how to do.
vectors is hard alrdy. and here come 3-D vector. omg. i can just die lah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hope somebody will be able to enlighten me later!! please.................

alright. it is time to SLEEP. after i watch SHINee's RING DING DONG video. heh.

did nth over the week end. ytd had a small family gathering and today mum spent 1hr skype-ing with cousin @ japan. cool. he promised to be our tour guide if we go there. YES! (Y)

kords also gg to taiwan december 26th. i hope that really can go genting w rongxzxz they all. hahaha! saving up up up! tmr gg to westmall. buying Nack de shampoo...

goodnight people!! =) it's monday again!!!

why am i still so awake at his time of the night?
jus now i take my afternn nap ard 7.30. and wake up at 1.10am. CLAPS!
tt's so long for a afternoon nap and so late and so whatsoever!!!

woke up bathed and watch a video about Professor Randy, A Last lecture.
actually is want to earn CE points one. but i find it very inspiring. it just took me one hour, to realise
my dreams and how to get there. although u might think that i don't watch this kind of video, but it really catches my attention. and went to yahoo about Professor Randy. his is really an idol man!
really, take an hour of time to see. it's worth while. link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ji5_MqicxSo&feature=player_embedded

ytd was msn-ing with Rongxzxz. haha! damn crap. finally had some catch up session. =)) and we talked about gg to genting. how easily entertained we are. smiling and laughing. haha!!
misses to Rong, Fer and Xian. really hope can catch up soon. CHEERS! cos sch starting liao right. i damn happy. wahahaha!! *SMIRK

hmm... tired day. BLOATED day. started the day angry.

woke up late at 6.40! get it! but lucky still managed to reach bus early, but, BUS LATE!!!

damn. in the end, today need squeeze lift. actually for the whole week is rch early de lor. dunid squeeze lift. that kind of feeling is shiok de lor!

tmr is friday le loh! sat no need work, is PH. =)) hahaha!!!

tmr gg to westmall, PLC, but things for Nack. see got nice earrings or not. haha.

dunoe wan go JP also or not. maybe lah.

ytd i saw 1 person carry a Everlast bag. got alot pockets. I LIKE!!! HAHAHA!!!

i like to bring everything w me mah!! LOL!!

today, wanted to ask huatts go sakae wan. want to talk to him also.

but he don want to eat. but mum scold him liao. i hope everything turn out to be better. =))

alright. im super worn out. i am not sure why, i just hate to stay at home now, home is such a lonely place. a place full of selfishness!!!

i just dont understand, how selfish can huatts be. i am really very irritated. i just don't feel like talking to him. he doesn't go and help mum out. even during his exams he plays until ard 10pm den he come back. esp today. i only see him @ 10.14pm. crap. i rched home at 5. he was out the whole afternoon. jus damn the friends that he is mixing with, and the selfish thought he have in mind. i duwan to turn this sister-brother relationship into hate. it is driving me crazy.

this is his rebellious period, he will learn bad very quickly. but where do i find chance to talk to him. mum doesn't care, which is driving even more sick, and kords, omg!!! what kind of family is this. i don't know.

I REALLY DONT!!! fuck off! cb. i am really angry angry.
angry w myself, angry for not being able to look after my younger brother, that i love the most. seeing him turn BAD. what should i do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

really tired and worn out. my preserverence is dieing out.
happy moments are just temporary. when i go back home, everything starts all over again............

alright alright. im in class now. waiting......

congratulations to myself man!! haha! i finally passed my BTT. =))
i feel that this using the system do one is more easier lor, compared to last time i do on paper de. that time is SUAY UNTIL! bloody hell. why is the system even bloody down man!! and the qns more difficult. the book spoil!! can ASSUME LAST TIME DE BBT harder? haha. nvm, i passed alrdy.. i also book the FTT date le. 03/11, in the night one...

but now my priority is to study for my O'levels now. and get good grades. =))
ytd also got back my calculator, can finally do my math alrdy.

planning to go for sakura tonight. but mum duwan to go. just have to give it a miss!
but now studying i am eating damn alot alot alot!!
growing FAT again! cnt cnt!

omg! heart ATTACK. jus now kords come back, Buddy suddenly bark. scare until me.
PIK BOK PIK BOK! LOL!

aiya, today cognitive. how do you think scientifically? what i scientific thinking. SIAN!
plus my group is abit too quiet. ask a few times i also ask until sian liao lor.

but until the end still ok lah.
tmr is my BTT, haven study. WISH ME GOOD LUCK!

today's morning rain is like wad only!!! irritating.
bus schedule cock up. Yas did not come and meet me at my bustop. we plan to meet on the bus.
1st bus. PACK. v v v PACK.
2nd bus. 2 mins ltr. there she is, but followed by the 3rd and the 4th bus. EMPTY.
wth. all jam tgt. becum we both of us late for sch. ha! actually i also abit late to go out.

today had lunch w the usual clique from W15D. stupid. they just wanna tease me, TURN BY TURN. WTH! nvm, had fun. laughed the whole lunch. =))

really miss those days in class where we can just speak out loud, not scare others listen, give comments, and laugh together. maybe it is the new class. i hope so. really. and by the time we get to know each other, play with each other, smack each other, it is time to change class again.

but this is no choice one, it is part of RP's PBL. also must learn to adapt. i admit this semester not like last semester, don't dare to talk until dunoe when. this semester i got talk, got participate. (Y)(Y) to myself. haha!

alright. 1st day in sch. not too bad, at least not like sem1 like that, keep quiet. my class should be fun. haha! although not yet blend in, i believe when blend in it is going to rock the whole building. HA! cnt wait for that day to come. should be soon.

btw, rmb me saying i wanna buy the iTouch alrdy. i check the internet price list, but i din check that it was in USD. so in SGD, is it 32GB for $468. 64GB for $628. ok. but suprisingly i kept saying im sad. but im not that dissapointed. =) bcos, only mum knows.. *shhh.

the man was persuading me to buy the 8GB one, saying i don't need such a big space. 64GB is way too big. but when the next generation of iTouch comes out, my 8GB will be more inferior. shall not buy anth 1st. im happy cause im able to save up the sum in my back. *claps!

after looking at the ipod, Yas and I walk around the basement level, look into several shops, take super long in MiniToons and Action City especially. the things in action city is so interesting. hahaha!
and being a lil disappointed, i went to ShiLin to buy 2 XXL chicken chop. OF COURSE, i din finish it alone.. i ate one packet and the other gif huatts and kords share share. jus don't feel happy that my cravings is not satisfied, i wanna eat MacDonald too!

ate super lots of things today, until i vomit in the shower. TSK TSK TSK!
in sch, i ate lunch.
den came back, mum pack me a big pot of beehoon soup in the thermal pot. *yumyum*
den ate 1 XXL chicken chop.
den 1 yogurt, and 1 honeydew milktea. WOW.
and not to forget, DURIANS!

omg. im getting FAT AND BLOATED.
finally being able to slim down abit at work, i gorge myself with food again.
i have to force myself to vomit all out. and i feel so much better.
i dun like to study, i eat FUCKING LOTS OF THINGS!

tmr is the last day at work. from monday onwards, mum is gg to be very tired again.
whenever i think if this, i feel very sad, i wanna cry....

how i wish me growing up will be faster and faster, so that she can retire and i can take care of her, because i see the hardwork and the amount of sweat she shed for we 3 siblings to grow up, good and trying to let us buy anything we want.
sometimes i wanna give her some money to losen up financially, but she always reject me.

the only way is that i can grow up faster.
although i can be quite angry with her attitude sometimes and the way she depends on me whenever i am at canteen, but whenever i think of how hard she works, my heart goes all out to her. i am wrong to be angry with her, because she is my mum, the effort she put in our small family and the 3 children. but sometimes, i hope my 2 brothers can feel and understand, how she is working hard and why is she working so hard for.

i can't bear to see my mum work so hard anymore, but i am still way back from graduating, this is so sick.

after i buy my iPod Touch, i will definitely save lots and lots of money. for a better future.
钱不是万能的，但没有钱是万万不能！

save up save up.!!
iPod touch and 500GB hard drive.