hais! i'm so stressed lah! humph! and sian. cos my lappy de letter M spoil. bloody hell. maybe jus now i dump it on the floor, den when i use, spoil liao. den i did my usual same stupid pattern agn, i did a stunt. i pluck out de covering of it. den now is kosong de lor. and huatts is mendling w it! and he broke it. lol. den he fixed it back agn,, lol! and i did anth stunt, hammer it w my hand. lol. now ok liao lor. kekeke! ok liao. lol.
hais, nw so happy. jus now so sad. i cried. hais. i'm so stressed lah! hais! i was hving tuition, and i asked TT smth. he was not answering my qn. and i ask him agn and agn. and he finally shouted, sounding so pissed off. IRON IS EITHER 2+ or 3+ LAH! DON ASK ME WHY! i wanted to ask him how to balance the formula, and i quite turned off, and i tink his loudness really scared me, cos i was so depressed w myself agn. den i kept quiet for he whole tuition, and had teary eyes, hais. i cnt show. if he ask, i confirm cry. i promised myself to be strong and must be able to hold back my tears. and when he left, i finally cnt take it anymore, chiong to the toilet and let off some steam, cos i'm really v stress. but i mus be strong. i mus achieve good marks. i'm gg to wake up early tmr morn to mug! get enuf rest 1st, better listen to fer... getting enuf rest is impt. this few days turn panda alrdy. cos i seriously wanna do well. i duwanna dissapoint my parents and myself and of cos TT, giving me so much patience yeah. thanks=).
i'm feeling so stressed bcos there's a target this time. and i wanna meet it. and i feel more stress den last yr. i guess cos this time i'm getting serious alrdy. last yr was a wasted year. i cnt afford to waste anymore tym. no matter where i go nx year, be it poly or ite, i mus work extra extra hard. i wanna be the top few. i wan to get good apportunities when i grow up. so i must be strong and hardworking. i mus be disciplined. disciplined to tell my mind to work hard, cnt lazy, cnt procrastinate, and i mus be nice. this few days i'm working so hard to be a changed person, in my attitude and in my speech. but when i'm happy, i'm back to my original self agn. i'm laughing so loud. ha. okay okay, dat's me lah. lol. like speaker liddat, got my mum's family de genes, no choice.
okay, i'm gg to sleep alrdy, tmr waking up to study study! chiong chiong chiong! mug mug mug! it's a brand new week for me! brand new life! and fri so suay until 2day. fri i got bitten my buddy, blueblack. den ytd i wanted to smack nack de butt, smack until de door, blublack, and buddy bute me this afternnon, a lil swollen. lol. this 2 dogs making me bruised. ha! and i went to the BBQ ytd! until quite late! had so much fun! princesses, all the WAy!!!
GOD, pls gif me the strength to be strong and to be disciplined. thank YOU.
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