kailing is blurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.!
i am gg to thailand this thurs, and coming back on the monday night. which means i will miss my math and communications UT. ain't i good.
i agreed on gg because i tot that it was 14thdec. happily i tell biqin, i thurs and monday not gg to school...

den just now got conv w zhen lin, she so excited. i tell her u excited for what, still got so long, den she tell me 3 more days mah. i tot she was kidding. i go check my schedule, missing two UTs. omg. _!_. how could i be so blurr lah!! jus now ER BE MU ask me i still go tell her i finish exams alrdy, miss two days of school nvm. really!!! TSK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now hope tmr i tell mum she dont blow up. and do well for my UT2 lor.
and must go change my coins liao. if not money not enough. =)

HAI!!!
i only know how to sigh, but no actions. ytd night was abit emo and than i decided to go jogging. but end up never go. aft sch went to Westmall to buy Nack de stuffs. spend $77 there. goodness!! but he is happy!! so me happy to! WAHAHA!!

just now rched home had my dinner, and about 6.30 i sleep alrdy. cnt take it. tired after continuous exams. monday and wednesday got O's science. tuesday and thursay got UT. friday is the day to rest. tmr got work. 3 more mins and it's 12! im gg to have less than 4hrs of sleep!HAE!

good night lor!

HAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dunoe why suddenly feel so emo... im supposed to feel better after my shower!!!
been looking at others photos. and i think of alot of things.
alot alot alot of things. there are no answers to it?
or am i just acting ignorant??? lost??? feel so neglected suddenly. what is actually the thing i wanted? the life i want to lead??!! i don't know.

i shall not think of anything now!
tmr gg to westmall?? buy Nack de shampoo. and i have decided to go jogging again. since my O's are sort of over. i don't want to delay things anymore. but i hope i will not 半途而废 AGAIN.

FML! _|_
what i can do to fit in? what should i do to fit in?? why am i so not satisfied w my current life??

alright. just bad news for myself. did not study at all for physics and i went for the exam this morning. because it is a morning ppr. and i was v tired ytd, frm the long day at sch and UT and the FTT. i told myself, i will wake up at 4.ooam to study.

but nvr did i wake up to study, i even sleep until 7.00am when the exam is 8.00am. lucky i live nearby. managed to reach but with nothing in my brain. cnt do my paper, feel so bad. i came home and i cry and cry.
think of mum and TT. but this is a path that i have chosen. 没有回头路 alrdy. when i am crying, i am very sad. but think for a time, just forget it. cnt turn back.

then i was telling Tiffancy on what to do after she takes her Ns result. and i found myself saying some phrase which my other cousins told me:
think of the future the plans. if pass, how? if fail how?
don't the pass, must look ahead.
.....
.....

and there i found myself feeling better too. its not that i am too optimistic. but why keep ppnder about the things that cnt turn back. might as well think of the future. study well in poly and get a good job....

btw, i failed by FTT. did not think of passing it too. did not study at all, only flip through the book. got one guy he abt 10+ mins he finish alrdy. and i peeped at his screen, and i saw PASSED. good. when i was doing it, i still feel ok lor, den i tot i might pass. den my screen show FAILED.
dulan. walk off. haha! gg to take it on the 3/12. this time really want to pass alrdy.

and result in i left my IC and ez-link in my other bag. cos need take bus and IC for identification.
and so, i nvr bring this both to the exam center. aint i great!! i did not pack my bag in the morning... and i panic outside the classroom!!!

i tot i am gg to lose anth chance in the science paper. the last final chance. die. den i quickly look through my wallet, and i saw my Sec sch ez-link card and i used it. luckily the invigilator say is ok.
IM BLURR!!!

AAAHHHHH!!!!!!

damndamndamndamndamndamn!!!!
_|_ _|_!!!

angry angry lah!!

today is suay day??
1st. chem paper so difficult.
2nd. rain when gg to end the paper
3rd. hungry no food.

nvm! dinner is gg to be ready soon!
and today is not suay day lah.
U REAP WHAT U SOW!

that's the meaning of not studying.
零时抱佛脚，最后还是抱不到脚!!
sian. today paper is really difficult. and i v unsure for section B. the marks like free one, write little bit also so many points. DIE lah. not confident. shall not think too positive for it.
better work harder for me physics and the MCQ lor. '

no pics for the time being, busy w exams lor!
tmr is cognetive UT and FTT.
not gg to study any at all. *PHYSICS PHYSICS PHYSICS!!*
but kords and mum say FTT is easier than BTT. say until really like easy. tmr gg to try my luck lor. wish me good luck lah!!