Kai Ling

i dunoe if i am being over sensitive or what. i really believe in karma.

of course, karma that affects me, be it positive or negative.

i am not sure whether what i have done recently is good or bad. but of course thinking of what i want to achieve, i have been really nice to people, unless the are nasty to me. i really wish for good karma for myself, and the people ard me, especially for my loved one.

i really have no idea what we have done to have to go through all these unfairness. all we want is just something very simple and peaceful. there is no need to be so fanciful abt anything or to be special. but it seems that there are many things that is controlling and restricting us alot.

what we have been giving is much more than we are receiving now, or is it just that what we have done is not enough, we have to reach out to more people? but now the thing that is controlling us is not our family etc. its just someone that will nvr look out to small characters like us.

i dunoe if i should continue feeling unfair now or to keep quiet and have a long prayer tonight. you know, its not what i wanted. i duwan to talk to God just because i need help and nvr worship and everything. although sometimes i feel that my prayers are answered, i feel very guilty. that's why, for very long, i nvr talk to God anymore. i believed in myself, i told myself, this are the things that i can do too. but currently, it doesn't seem to be like this.

can anyone tell me what to do now, and how to encourage the people around me, especially your precious loved one. i really dont wish to cry to sleep under my blanket tonight..