Kai Ling

just when i thought that things have changed a little better, everything goes haywire again. seriously, what is it that i have done wrong, i am treated this way?? and if it is me that u are going against, please, do it to my only, don't do it to my boyfriend, he doesn't deserve all these bullshits.

i seriously dunoe what is happening, what is going on, what i should do, and what i can do. my mind is just so blank, so so blank... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

i really hate myself for not knowing how to handle the problem. but things are just difficult to go back and be like the past. maybe for you, you can, but this is definitely not gg to be expected from me, for all the heartbreak you have done to me, it is enough to discriminate me, from a hero to a zero. i dunoe from where i can stand up again, i really don't.

i really hate crying to sleep, and waking up to the same old bullshits again.

sometimes i wish i could just die in my sleep, and never be awake anymore.

my heart sank again tonight. i feel like a useless person that can never handle things well, i wish i am strong enough to hold back my tears, but i am just not strong enough.

what i am going through now just can't be explained in a few words or two. i just hate being me now. everything is no longer the same. i hate my life, i can die.