and some decisions were made. and i freaking cried again. i dunoe what is happening. i seemed to be washing my face with tears so regularly. but spare me, i really felt the heartpain and confusion inside me. but whatever happens, we are gg to work damn hard.
and of course, i got nice pictures with Jetro definitely. using the new DSLR as well as my digi cam, shall upload them when im in sch tmr.
today was field trip to the zoo for drawing lesson. it was well all so awesome and tiring. i have feet that is breaking soon. but i get to learn how to use my camera there, and i got really ugly drawings. and i have yet to complete them.. maybe tmr yeah.
and home is the suckiest place i will wanna be at afterall. i dragged all my time to come home slowly. and i reached at abt 7pm today. i just hate to stay home recently, its just about being in the room. and i really dunoe, why is all this falling upon me all at once? im really gg to have a really bad emotional break down. i kept feeling my heart beating so hard. it is really very painful, and i couldn't stop crying. i couldn't enjoy what im doing and i dunoe what im doing at all.
i really hope i know the purpose of what im doing now. and really quickly regain my clear set of mind to think and do my work well. i really wanna do well in my studies and have a good future, because i noe family and home is no longer the place where i get my support now and the place where i can depend on.
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